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I think I figured out why my mood disorders have not been an issue, not that I want to jinx it. There are a lot of factors but I think it’s mostly the sun. We are solar-powered. It was obvious to...


July 06, 2024

Wallflower

Walking to the gym gives me time to think about how much my life sucks. Then I have to remind myself that I have Life Dysmorphia. I can’t see how good my life is. For starters, I am walking. I ca...


July 06, 2024

Moo

Every Saturday starts the same way. I get triggered by my roommate. Her cheek, her nerve, her gall, her audacity, and her gumption. I do not want to let it ruin my day. I’ll let the rain take car...


July 04, 2024

Inner World Peace

The calm before the storm. That’s the vibe. Ironically, we are in the middle of a severe storm as I type. I think all the areas of my psyche have agreed to a truce. I have inner world peace. I do...


July 02, 2024

Tom the Broken

I did not go to bed pleased about my weekend last night. I feel like I wasted it. This is nothing new but I feel fed up, officially. ADHD, it’s like being told that there is something wrong with...


June 30, 2024

V for Vendetta

Did you know? My snobby stupid roommate was offered 5K worth of CBD oil for free three times and said no. Lenstar, my ride-or-die, her baby daddy, Zerr, is a veteran who just canceled his lifetim...


June 27, 2024

Life Dysmorphia

I was trembling during my therapy session today. Not from discussing my childhood trauma but from discussing what I’m truly passionate about. I talked about what I wanted to discuss in my podcast...


June 25, 2024

DOMS Top

Everybody kept telling me to talk to my supervisor about doing light duties. I was too stubborn. It is obvious that I am in pain. What happened? Just leg day. I went too hard at the gym on Sunday...


June 24, 2024

Mundane Monday

I forgot about the tension between my supervisor and I. Last week she was on holiday. It was a holiday that turned into a bereavement leave for her, unfortunately. Without us being micromanaged,...


June 23, 2024

Once More With Feeling

It’s a beautiful day. It was a gorgeous weekend. It was a gorgeous week. They were the longest days of the year with the sun closest to its center of force. Happy Summer Solstice! I spent most o...


June 21, 2024

Rumination

I have 99 problems and studying ain’t one. I feel weightless now that the semester is over. I feel aimless, I don’t know what my next move should be. School may not be exacerbating my mental heal...


June 18, 2024

New POV

We know I do not subscribe to baseless superstitious medical beliefs that make us act against our best interests. Disease is not caught, it is not possession, it is created. The recipe is toxic w...


June 18, 2024

Anger Mismanagement

I’m an intellectualizer. This is what makes therapy difficult for me. I already know what I should do. I know what they are going to say. More or less. I intellectualize my emotions. I process th...


June 17, 2024

Mission Impossible

On my way to work this morning, I felt like the cosmos was punishing me for recent epic failures. It’s just like me to play the victim. I was born for this role. If something can go wrong, it is ...


June 15, 2024

Bloom and Doom

I said that I would end up working my nerve today and then I ended up working my nerve today. Manifestation? Or a self-fulfilling prophecy? If something could go wrong it went wrong. My apartmen...


It’s laundry day so I’m wearing my cranky pants. Yesterday I felt like I was on cloud nine because I no longer have to carry the weight of my studies. Today, I’m feeling emotionally dysregulated...


June 14, 2024

Dread Weight Lifted

I don’t know what Cloud Nine feels like but I think I woke up on it today. The weight of school has been lifted. It was dead weight in the end. I was not numbed out today. I could feel everythin...


June 12, 2024

Blank Space

I don’t think that I know how to relax. I don’t have class, I don’t feel like I should be studying. I don’t feel like there is something that I am supposed to do, which is what motivates me to st...


June 09, 2024

Binge Thinking

12 Signs The Only Problem With Your Life Is That You Think About It More Than You Live It Anxiety is usually bred out of inaction. We were born to actualize our potential, not just analyze it. Bi...


June 07, 2024

Inner Child Neglect

I’m aware that I am going through a grieving process. At the end of grief is acceptance. At the end of healing is forgiveness. There are no other endings. I’m not going to get displacement, I am ...


It’s like discovering that there is something wrong with my legs. I can learn to walk again but I will never run. I will never swim and I will never climb. That is what this… dopamine deficiency ...


Do you know what my problem is? A diagnosis informs treatment but the labels stay with you for life. They also have a profound impact on a person’s identity. In a world where everybody seems to b...


I am wondering if my cheat meal on Friday was worth it. My ND did say that the body does not know the difference between a little and a lot when it comes to being damaged by toxic food. I am bloa...


May 18, 2024

Too Two

I finally linked up with Alex & Bruce. I got a better picture of what this position looks like that I’m applying for. It’s not shift work. We don’t know what the starting wage is for this pro...


May 17, 2024

Ozempic Face

Cassie, at work, did not recognize me right me right away. She had to do a double take. She told me that she could see that I was losing weight and was concerned. I lost 10lbs. I told her to spre...


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