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by TL

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September 03, 2024

Wellness Update

My mood disorders are still missing in action. My triggers are not. My situations are not. Today I have to admit to myself that my habits are not. I still do anxiety and depressed things. Hung...


September 02, 2024

Blank Slate

My dream woke me up. Just in time because it was awful. In the scene, the theme was public nudity. I couldn’t bring myself to do it, just like in real life. I arranged to change in a separate ro...


September 01, 2024

Got To Act My Wage

About $120 later I finally submitted my request forms for a Criminal Record check, an Adult/Child Abuse Registry Check, and a Driver Abstract. This better be worth it. I’m not letting this sink ...


August 31, 2024

The More You Know

I developed heightened sensitivities to a lot of the things that I’ve quit over the years. I quit dairy and now it burns ulcers in my mouth if anything I eat comes into contact with it. I quit w...


August 31, 2024

Untwisted

Tongue-tied, brain-tied, heart-tied, maybe even tubes-tied. That’s the vibe. Sigh of relief is what I felt yesterday. There was no real sigh but I felt a huge shift—a calmness set throughout my ...


August 30, 2024

Onboarded

It’s not on paper but I am hired. I thought I was having an interview with the programs coordinator but it was an orientation. Just the two of us. It was not communicated to me that it was an ori...


August 29, 2024

Follow-up

I got a follow-up email from that non-profit. The HR thinks I would be a better fit for a different program. I am going to meet with that coordinator tomorrow. I can’t find the program on their w...


August 28, 2024

So Close Yet So Far

I got to lead a reset today. It fell in my lap but I know I did great. This is exactly what I like to do. I was given Connie and Helen. This is a heavy week for my team and my supervisor couldn’t...


August 27, 2024

Stress Test

My anxiety wants fuel. This week will be a stress test. I can tell. Though I can remind myself that they’re just thoughts, the situations are still real. I’m not gaslighting myself with toxic po...


August 26, 2024

Relax Max

I need to choose peace over anger. That is the exercise I’m supposed to work on. My roommate makes this challenging. As we know. I felt ready to throw hands today. Relax, take it easy. This is he...


August 25, 2024

For Better or for Worse

My mind dissociates from my body causing a functional freeze. This is when I will rot in my bed for most of the day. Every small task feels too overwhelming. I have not experienced this in almost...


August 24, 2024

V for Vendetta

V is for vagina in this part of the entry. A customer at work was hiding nothing with her blue tights. They were shorts? She was spilling out of them. Long black hair with extensions, botched bot...


August 23, 2024

Meday

I broke the ice with my roommate. I haven’t said a word to her in almost two weeks. My work bought me an individual vegan pizza, which I brought home for her as I don’t eat hybridized wheat. It f...


I am frustrated with the dealership I purchased my car from. I made a $500 deposit to secure the vehicle. It is supposed to be deposited back but no action has been taken yet. I did reach out to ...


August 20, 2024

Coming Soon: Villain Era

Today was long and full of terrors. My night was as well. I dreamt about Gods and monsters. Candace Owens was there too. I don’t know what the dream was about but I kept waking up terrified. This...


My therapist paralleled my previous entry. We discussed a lot of what I mentioned without me having to bring it up. I wanted to talk about my anger issues. My anxiety and depression have been abs...


August 17, 2024

V for Values

I went 38 years without knowing that I had ADHD. I’m very high-functioning. I never gave it any thought until I experienced the ADHD paralysis this year. It brought me back to how I was in high s...


August 16, 2024

Back To Reality

My reality check bounced. I say that in jest. I am tuning back into my fragile little world though. I’m feeling stressed about that job interview I had yesterday. It’s out of my hands now. I have...


August 15, 2024

He/Then

I was thrown off by my first interview question. First of all, what are your pronouns? I am not that confident about my interview today. I’ll have to wait up to two weeks to hear back from them....


August 13, 2024

Air

I feel like I have so much to say but I can’t get anything out. The getaway was nice but it is time to return to my so-called life. Lenstar’s neighbor was my math teacher at the Adult Education ...


August 13, 2024

Trippin'

It was a rough start to my trip on Friday. While I was loading my car, I managed to lock myself out of the building for 40 minutes. I dropped my keys at some point. I was rage-packing and got clu...


August 09, 2024

Thought Less

They are just thoughts. I have been telling myself. That is my current mantra. The missing piece that my therapist gave me. Today, my thoughts were racing so hard that it felt like a hole was bur...


August 09, 2024

Mood Poisoning

I went to bed angry and then I woke up angry. Then I went to work angry. It was a half day but I still left work angry. I don’t even know what I’m angry at. Maybe it’s andropause. Though my mood...


August 08, 2024

Water Fight

It’s been almost a week and I can’t get my stomach to act right. It’s like every bite I swallow feels like a sucker punch. After I quit smoking, I couldn’t handle smoke of any kind. After I quit ...


August 07, 2024

NRG

I just caught myself in avoidance mode. I feel like I have to rush to do all the little things so that I can tackle my crisis list after that. I’m going to stop dead in my tracks and just enjoy m...


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Things happening in my life currently