9/19/05 in Victim of Society

These past couple of weekends have been seriously so much fun. It's weird during summer like no one threw parties but now all of a sudden there are a bunch. Anyways on Friday I went to 3 parties. First one that Andrea's friend David knew of. There were all these guys passed out on the couch and one kept throwing up it was disgusting. I drank a few beers and felt pretty buzzed. Things though kept reminding me of old memories and making me sad but oh well I guess I am used to that. The second party we went to was one Angela told me about. There were a ton of people I knew there like Castillo, Kory, Jessica and fucking bitches there like Jesse and ERIKA fucking CLINE. Ugh that bitch comes up to me while im having a conversation with kory and andrea and she starts confronting me like "WTF why are u talking shit and calling me conceited and i know u always talk shit about me gil tells me blalblalba" and i was like FIRST OF ALL...Gil is a fucking peice of shit little liar so if u are believing him then ur pretty stupid. and she was like Kory told me u called me conceited wtf im not conceited. I called her conceited like 3 MONTHS AGO and she was like just say it to my face and i was like UR CONCEITED get over it!! and she kept calling me off to the said claiming she didnt want to kick my ass but all her stupid lil friends were throwing shit at me and giving me dirty ass looks and i was just like STOP FUCKING STARING AT ME. ugh so annoying! Finally they left and like korys friends all do E alot and they were talking to me about it like "omg ur the girl who ODed! blablabla" and i was just like yup thats me... wow great way to be known I drank a pumpkin ale at that party and then got pretty bored and me and drea left to some other party. So much art was at the house and i was just like wow this is so cool and then BOOM out walks tony and scott (craigs friends) and i was just like wtf that is weird and hoping craig wasnt there (thankfully he wasnt ) Around 1:30ish we went home and i was pretty tired. Saturday I had to wake up early and work from 11a.m until 9p.m) My legs hurt soooo bad from standing all day. But I really wanted to party with Angela and everyone so I went to Angelas friends house with Andrea and met up with Margot and her boyfriend and his lame friends. Angela gave me 2 shots of this hard vodka and I drank like 3 beers cuz I wasnt the designated driver that night and i wanted to get drunnnnnnnkkk. So then me and Margot go and buy cigs and then we get back and im just like super drunk but kinda getting bored cuz there werent many ppl there. Then we all went to jack in the box and me and drea had to pee so bad so while we were waiting in the drive thru we got out of the car and popped a squat by some church hahaha. We went back to the party and Angela seemed all bored and pissed and there still wasnt much goin on there so I called Matt up and me margot and andrea went over to matts friend jimmys house. He had a super cool house andhe was really nice. I was flirting with Matt and everything but he seemed all standoffish and i was like wtf why is he bein all weird. Well turns out some girl that was there also kinda has a thing for him so he didnt want to offend her by being all over me. Everyone was hungry again so me margot n drea went to del taco to get food for everyone. The line was SO frikin long. Margot the whole time was like bragging about how much sex she has and how she doesnt care about using condoms and blablabla and if i started talking about sex she would say like rude things like "well u dont know cuz i have had sex more then u" and stupid shit like that and i was like oh ok WOW u have had sex with one person. Me andrea both have had sex with two ppl (well unless u count keith but i dont eww haha )so its not like ne of us are all experienced but she acts like she is and like scott is just the best at sex blabla. it gets annoying but watever. ne waz i was super horny and when i got back to the jimmy dudes house matt was in the hall and grabbed me and started making out with me and then took me to some back bedroom and happened to be jimmys parents room (opps) so we all start fooling around and he pushes me on the bed and stops and is like "wait are u ok with this" and i sorta look up at him and smile and say "yea but im on my period" and he was like ooo thats ok we dont have to go all the way. UGH STUPID PERIOD! but ne waz he pulls my shirt off and then i take my bra off and he starts kissing me everywhere and then i take his shirt off and undo his pants and start giving him head for like 10-15ish minutes and finally he cums and of course i have to swallow cuz i cant like spit it on the floor lol but then we hear BOOM BOOM BOOM! and jimmys like pounding on the door and i was like shittt and got dressed all fast and matt opens the door and jimmys just yelling at him like WTF DUDE U DID NOT THIS IS MY FUCKING PARENTS BEDROOM HOW COULD U MAN THATS SICK BLABLABLA" and i felt like shit :( finally matt shut the door and took me out back and i like didnt have my shirt on yet just my jacket so i was outside putting it on and i was so scared to go inside by i did and drea and margot were telling me how jimmy was getting all pissed like um yea u guys need to go now and stuff. But then matt called me the next day and told me that everythings fine and jimmy was sorry for making a big scene and like kicking us out. But yea ne waz i didnt get home till four in the morning and margot and drea said that my mom was like "WHERES NATALIE" as they were walking up to my house and i was like shittt she is going to be so mad at me so i was all scared all nite. But when i woke up in the morning she didnt even care. she said she heard andrea go "so what happened to natalie" and she thought i like ODed again and thats why she said that lol. Well Sunday I had to work 3-9 and after that i hung out with the edster :) I was supposed to hang out with steve too but he was being lame and he was like no u just go hang out with eddie cuz i just wanted to hang out with JUST U and i was like well too bad u know like wtf why cant we ALL HANG OUT TOGETHER ughhh. but ne waz me and eddie had this long talk just about everything and it was sorta sad. like how things will never b like they used to be and how all this stupid shit happened and how ppl changed and then about our families and i was just thinking like dude....if like matt n craig didnt hate me...i wouldnt hate them u know? its just the fact that they hate me for no apparent reason that makes me hate them.