Yet another evening ruined . . . in Not All Who Wander Are Lost

Because my best friend got drunk.

warning, ridiculously long entry ahead

For the record, all in all, I had a pretty great Friday. I had a follow up appointment for a doctor’s appointment I had a month ago, when I had sinusitis. I’m actually sick AGAIN, but the doc said since I was getting better he wasn’t going to prescribe anything this time, which I was fine with. I actually really like my new doctor. He’s a bit younger than I normally have for doctors, but I don’t know, he’s just really great. Also kind of ridiculously handsome. Also I asked if his last name was Swedish and he seemed really impressed that I knew that so I explained my bestie is Swedish, so you know, I’m down with Sweden.

After that appointment I had another appointment for my first therapy session. This is another thing I really liked about my new doc, I was just like, yeah, I have these issues and he was like, cool, I’ll just set you up with a therapist. Like it was so nice he just did that?? So yeah, met my therapist and did a lot of background history and she was great. Like it’s just nice to have someone affirm these things in your life and that questions or second guess. Like talking about past relationships and discussing one in particular and sort of talking around the issue and she just flat out said, “Okay, so there was clearly some mental and sexual abuse going on there.” And I was just like . . . Yes. Yes there was. Thank you for saying that. So she was great.

After I picked the girls up from school we went to the coffee shop down the street with another mom and her two kids. Her two kids are the exact same ages as K and E so they’re all besties and I really like the mom (who also happened to go to high school with Adam and knows him) so it’s just . . . It’s nice to have mom friends? Like I really don’t have that many mom friends because other moms tend to make me nervous. But I’ve made a few this year and they’ve been really great. Jaden stayed at school for gamers guild so we picked him up around 5 and after that I headed off for my (supposed to be) awesome night out.

So.

Jo and I had discussed seeing Fantastic Beasts with another chick I work with. My friend Heather texted and asked if I was seeing it this weekend and I told her to join us, too but she was just going to meet us at the theatre. Jo wanted to go out for sushi and I’m trying to be good and save money so we were like, Okay, we’ll get one drink each, one appetizer, three rolls, it’ll be perfect. Except I get there at six and she is clearly already drunk. Like. Slurring speech, stumbling, can’t seem to focus, drunk. So we sit down and I’m like . . . So you’ve been drinking . . . And she’s like yeah, I just had one drink before and I’m like . . . Kay. And then she orders another drink and I’m like . . . Wtf. Are you doing. So she tells me Julie might meet us at the theatre and I’m like cool, that’s fine, so I tell her about my day and she kept crying? Repeatedly? It was weird. And then she told me a rambling nonsensical story and I’m like what the actual fuck is going on and then it turned on Julie as actually AT the restaurant waiting for us so Jo goes to get her and comes back with a spilled drink saying Julie hated her. Sooo, I guess she went to get Julie who had gotten her own table and Julie could tell she was drunk from the start and Jo tried to pick up Julie’s drink and Julie told her NOT to pick up her drink but she did anyway and spilled it and yes Julie was kind of annoyed with that because, well, Jo was drunk and spilled Julie’s drink.

So Julie joins us and the rolls come and Jo is not eating and I told her she needed to eat and she says she ate before.

And once I am like.

What the fuck.

Like.

WE MADE PLANS.

But apparently she and Matt were at Nagoya before me and she ate and drank with him. So I’m like . . . Why did we make plans, why did you do this before I got here, why did you not tell me so I didn’t order 3 fucking rolls that you are not going to eat?? I was just so frustrated and annoyed with her at this point. And she KEPT CRYING. And Julie and I kept asking her what was wrong and she said she was fine and we’re like . . . I mean what do you do??? And she kept putting her hair in the soy sauce and getting annoyed when I pointed it out or moved her drink so she wouldn’t’ knock it over and she asked Julie four times if Ryan was coming to the movie and then looked upset when we were like . . . You asked this already.

The waitress came and Jo just kind of stared off into space while Julie and I gave her our credit cards. Finally I reminded Jo that she needed to give the waitress her card and Jo spilled ALL her cards all over the floor. After the waitress took the bills Jo went to the bathroom and didn’t come back so after Julie signed for her bill she went to check on her. I ended up signing for Jo’s card and just gathered up our stuff and left to find them both. Julie was outside the bathroom and told me to just go on to the movie and she’d stay with Jo. So I went and met up with my work friend and then Julie called and said she was going to take Jo home and meet me there.

So. After all that. Heather, Julie, and Ryan all came to the movie and the movie was great, like I loooooooved it so much. And Julie, Ryan, and I chatted for a bit after about Jo and what the fuck was up with her. And I just feel like . . . this happens a lot. Where we make plans to get a drink and she’s drunk when she SHOWS UP and then drinks more. Like clearly she does not know when to stop and I guess . . . like is it my job to tell her not to drink? Which I would do but then when she’s drunk she gets really belligerent sometimes and thinks you hate her and starts crying. Which we’re in a public place and that isn’t fun to deal with. But this is like the third time in recent memory that she’s completely ruined a night we had planned together because she didn’t stop drinking.

This morning I woke up to two texts saying she’d pay me back for the meal (clearly did not remember giving them her credit card) and the movie ticket I had prepurchased for her (I returned it and they gave me a free pass.) I haven’t talked to her though. Like. I don’t want to tell her it’s okay. I know she feels bad but . . . She should feel bad? And I feel like not an awesome friend for saying that but she didn’t hold up her end of the bargain AGAIN. And she just cannot seem to manage to have one drink. And it’s not like I want to say she has a problem because it’s not like she drinks at work or anything but COME ON.

This is also coming on the heels of a few weeks ago when I had asked her to listen to a presentation I was giving on fanfic for a pop culture con I was attending. She said I should come over, we’d have a drink and dinner and I could give my presentation. Then she said our other friends Joe and Renee were coming and I was like great! Because they don’t know anything about fanfic so that would be good. Except once again I arrive and she’s already drunk and she kept drinking and then everyone was drunk and by the time I was trying to give them my presentation, like . . . They were all being assholes. Constantly interrupting me and making jokes and comments and, yeah, being total dicks. So then our friend Kelly came over and I was like, I am just going to go because this isn’t happening and I’m frustrated. And they were like noooooo, we’re so sorrrrryyyyy, do it again! So against my better judgement I did and Kelly was actually really great and asking really good questions and giving me really good feedback and once again everyone else was being terrible and not listening and then asking why I wasn’t paying attention to them and then I was just done. Like. Literally just done. So I packed up and they’re like heeeeyyy do super awesome on your presentation and I was like fuck you all. So Jo walks me out and she’s like you seem upset and I’m like YES I’M FUCKING UPSET. I came here to do ONE THING the THING WE AGREED UPON and that DIDN’T FUCKING HAPPEN. And I really nervous about this presentation and really, really wanted some help and feedback and everyone in that room was being a jerk (except Kelly.) I cried all the way home because I was so upset and frustrated that people I call my friends couldn’t NOT be jerks for 15 minutes to help me.

On the plus side of this my previously mentioned Swedish bestie asked if she could “fuck around with my google presentation” and basically did the entire thing for me which was amazing and lovely. and I did a google hangout with her and my bestie Anna and her husband Ed and they listened and gave really good notes and feedback and the presentation managed to be pretty fucking awesome I have to say. And Jo and I did talk and she did apologize but this is just like more of the same? And it’s not okay. Like. It’s not okay to drink too much and ruin plans you made with people and I feel like, I don’t know, I guess I’m enabling her by not telling her not to order another drink? But it’s just impossible to reason with her when she’s like that.

So yeah. I don’t know. Really. I’m assuming she’ll call at some point today but. Sigh.

But on a side note seriously Fantastic Beasts is so good.

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