A lot of Pain in Torridaussity Two
- March 14, 2015, 11 p.m.
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Well as you all know I am not a frequent write on here, well I can when I make an effort, but I tend to keep to myself as in my own brain rather than even share on here my deepest darkest thoughts and secrets. I have in the past 3 weeks, had severe left shoulder pain. Once was two weeks ago and it took three days for my muscles to relax and to have normal mobility in my arm. It started again yesterday. Today it was so bad I almost couldn’t get my bra on to go out. It just aches and I want to cry. This happened in my right arm a few years ago, at first my doctor thought I had dislocated it. It is a muscular problem. My muscles get super tight and won’t move. I am also experiencing pain in my lower left back and have been having frequent headaches over the past few weeks as well. I don’t understand where all this pain is coming from, but I want it to go away.
On a more profound front something emotional happened today. I belong to the Grange, which is a community service organization and we had a meeting today normally we meet once a month, but January and February were canceled because of the weather. Well last January all those her were at the meeting wrote down a prediction for what would happen in 2014. My grandmother was also a member of Grange and she had written one. She passed away in June of 2014. The predictions had been in a box, not looked at since January of 2014. Her prediction was “be called home to heaven” Her prediction came true. My mom, dad, and I all choked up at that. But it reminded me that she is always with us no matter what and one day I will see her again.
On yet another note. I am jealous of people lately. I am feeling so lost in where I want my life to go and always thought it would be different than it has been. I don’t begrudge others their happiness not would I want to take it away from them, I just want it too.
Thanks for reading, love you all.
Milkwood ⋅ March 14, 2015
Wow, that must have been so poignant today! I teared up a little reading that about your grandmother. I'm always worried about my own grandmother. Hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend.
Always Laughing Milkwood ⋅ March 15, 2015
It really was. She died very quickly and didn't suffer. I always worry about my grandfather now, he's the only one left and my parents dying. Hope you enjoy your weekend too.
Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
Hope your shoulder feels better soon. Hang in there hun
Always Laughing Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
thanks
Deleted user Always Laughing ⋅ March 15, 2015
Your very welcome
Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
I do hope your shoulder gets better - can you put a heating pad on I - that will loosen up the muscles a bit. I think that when people get jealous it is only because they wish and want whatever they are jealous about. So, instead of being jealous of things that you wish you had or want to have - make a list of how to obtain them. The only thing in your way is you...make it happen! Many procrastinators overestimate the unpleasantness of a task. So give it a try! You may find that it's not as bad as you thought! Hold the unpleasant consequences of not doing the work at the front of your mind.
HUGS
Always Laughing Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
Some of what I want I can't work for, I am jealous of the fact they have found love. I can do what I have been doing and putting myself out there, but no matter how hard I work it takes too for that one. As for the other things you are right I better make a list and start planning.
Deleted user Always Laughing ⋅ March 15, 2015
I disagree with you on love. You must believe that there is someone out there for everyone. There IS someone out there, join a dating service - there are free ones. Go to art galleries and new restaurant openings and go out with your girl friends - sometime when you aren't looking for love, it will find you. That was my story <3 You can have this...you deserve it and need to have optimistic thoughts that it will happen for you. I promise it will <3
Always Laughing Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
I am on 5 dating sites and I live in a small town I go where I can trust me I am doing all I can on the dating front. I am not saying it will never happen, but having lived my entire life so far with no boyfriend is frustrating.
Deleted user Always Laughing ⋅ March 15, 2015
Ok, well...give me some time and I will drum up some more ideas :P
Always Laughing Deleted user ⋅ March 16, 2015
i will take all the advice you can give lady. :-)
Deleted user ⋅ March 15, 2015
Nothing at all wrong with wanting the happy and joyful moments that you see others experiencing. What would it take for you to have the same kind of abundance? Give it to God and let him help you.
I have the same issues with my shoulders. Massage and reflexology are the only things that help it.
Cricket ⋅ March 16, 2015
:( Hope you feel better soon!!
Loki ⋅ March 17, 2015
And you'll find your happiness [Huggles]
WomanOfSteele ⋅ March 18, 2015
So sorry you're in so much pain. :(
Wow, that's crazy how your grandma predicted that. I guess you kinda just know sometimes.
LoveSuicide ⋅ March 27, 2015
Very touching regarding your grandmother.
What do you feel is stopping you from achieving fulfillment and happiness?
Always Laughing LoveSuicide ⋅ March 28, 2015
I am keeping myself from some things, but one of the things I am missing most is having that special someone in my life and I am trying to find them, but it just doesn't seem to be in the cards.