Wow. Where to start?! So much can change in six months! Last I wrote, it was fall and the boys were settling into a new school. I wasn’t working nearly as much as I am now. I was single. All that has changed! We had a hard long winter (yeah it’s Canada… every winter is long and hard). Some pleasant things have happened over the winter so it wasn’t all bad! I enjoyed some winter activities (sledding, skating etc). I’ve fallen in love… :) Spring should technically be here but its sure has been taking its sweet time in arriving… The little patches of green (ok..brownish-green! LOL) showing beneath the snow give us hope that winter isn’t going to be hanging around much longer.
What’s that you say? Go back to the part where I fell in love?? Hehe ok fine. Sometime before the holidays I grew closer and closer to a wonderful man and I knew I needed him in my life. I wasn’t looking for him but yet there he was! I wasn’t expecting to fall so hard so fast. I feel like I’ve known him my whole life, things with him just feel so comfortable and nice. We talk about our future together as though it’s already here. But… things are complicated and though I see patches of hope, we need to be patient and wait for our season of spring a little longer. When I think about how much has changed for me in the past six months, this encourages me. Yes waiting is hard but anything worth having is worth waiting for. I must slow down and just soak in the now. Appreciate what I have right now.
While there are phases in my life I just want to fast-forward, there are others I wish I could pause!! My boys are just growing way too fast on me. Especially my eldest. He’s currently 4‘9” and won’t stop eating when he’s not on his meds!! Tonight I heard his voice squeak. And I had to get him his own deodorant. Little brother who looks up to big brother oh-so-much has been checking his arm pits for hairs, convinced that he will start growing hair just like his brother any day now :) Oh how I feel old sometimes. I’m not old enough to have a tween and an-almost-five-year-old!!
Such is life. Finding the perfect balance between slowing down and moving forward. It’s not easy I tell you!
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