So, I don't know why I never really thought about going and living on the local Community College campus in the spring. I guess I always thought that I would have to start in the Fall Semester.
I've been really sitting and thinking about how I was going to tell my family that I was going to move across the country to live with a guy for a few months that I had never actually met in person. Alistair and I will have been dating long distance for over a year by the time that I go and stay with him for a bit. It's only for a few months on my summer break from school and it will really give us a gauge on if we're going to be a good fit together before we make any permanent commitments. I think it is a safe way of not rushing into anything but I know my family won't see it that way. They are very conservative and don't believe in any online dating stuff.
I'm afraid that if I'm living at home when I tell her that she will find some way of forcing me to stay and not allow me to go and see him. If that were to happen, I'm sure Alistair would take a week or two's vacation from work and come here to see me, we'd have waited long enough but I don't want to put the added burden on him because he'd be working and have made a steady life for himself that I really wanted to be apart of.
I found out today that you can go live on campus beginning in the spring semester. I could say that I wanted to go live on campus but close to home in case I happen to get into the University of Utah and I don't want to be my first away from home experience to be 2,000 miles away where I have no family to fall back on in case something happens or I need help with something. And then when it comes to a few weeks before I leave I can either meet up or call her and tell her what I am doing and that way she knows but she can't stop me if she doesn't agree.
A large part of me wants to believe that she will be okay with it. That she will see that we have been together for a year, in a committed relationship to one another, that he has really made me happy and changed me for the better (my weight, my outlook on school, friends etc) and will see how happy he makes me and be supportive. But the rational part of me, that knows her too well, knows that she won't. She will only see that we met on the internet, and that I don't really know him because we haven't met face to face and that I shouldn't be flying across the country to meet him in case he is dangerous.
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