Did I make the right choice? in Healing?

I don’t think I should do anything. I feel like, maybe you meant it, maybe it was a mistake, maybe you misread my intent to comfort you. How can I ruin your life if it is my fault? But when I ask you about it, you tell me it’s “never ended up like this”, that you didn’t “expect it to affect [me] like that”. How could it not? How loud does no have to be? When I told you sexual aggression scares me, you assume I’m playing hard to get? What if I’m wrong? What if I’m one of many? How do I explain to my boyfriend that I wasn’t trying to sleep with you? I don’t know how to heal from this, I don’t know what to do. A week. It’s been a week tonight. Why am I not better?