Kristen
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It's been awhile. in Huh
So much has happened. He was a liar, a cheater. Had a fiancee behind my back, for months. I’m carrying his child. 21 weeks. 21. I can’t believe it. I can’t believe how fucked everything is. I can...
I realized in Huh
I had left a bunch as drafts that o didn’t publish. Not that I need to, just found my behavior strange. 10 weeks along. I hate my body. I think the feeling is mutual. I don’t know if hormones ca...
I don’t want to be pregnant. Half the time I’m so frustrated with its father I’d rather poof into nonexistence. How can I have a baby with a man I can’t even be myself around?
You ever do something stupid. Really, impressively stupid? Man, this is not my year.
The nights are the worst. in Healing?
I got drunk, a male friend got too handsy, I cried myself to sleep and had nightmares about you. I had nightmares about you during my nap this afternoon. I have them every night. I’m coming up to...
Is 4 weeks still a month? in Healing?
It’s been that long. Tonight, actually. The one month anniversary. You still try to talk to me. I’ve resigned myself to ever picking at this wound. I’m not sure how to stop. This entire thing mak...
3 weeks. I needed clarification. I needed to understand. I needed to see you to see your face, judge if you’re lying. You were. You don’t care, you don’t feel anything. In the same breath you tol...
What to do in Healing?
I’m destroying all of my relationships, I think it’s in accident, but it’s sometimes calculated. I can feel the fear burning through me. Sometimes I want too much, and I blame them for not giving...
Did I make the right choice? in Healing?
I don’t think I should do anything. I feel like, maybe you meant it, maybe it was a mistake, maybe you misread my intent to comfort you. How can I ruin your life if it is my fault? But when I ask...
