What to do in Healing?

I’m destroying all of my relationships, I think it’s in accident, but it’s sometimes calculated. I can feel the fear burning through me. Sometimes I want too much, and I blame them for not giving it to me. I know I’m being unfair. I know they didn’t do it, they can’t help it, they can’t help me. But I expect them to fix me. Fix me or hurt me, I don’t feel like there’s a middle. 2 weeks. 2 weeks and I’m burning all the bridges around me. If I keep this up, I might even be able to talk myself out of a job.