Happy New Year... in Torridaussity Two

I hope for a happy one. Today started off rough. I overslept. We always celebrate Christmas with my dad’s side of the family New Years day. My cousin turned 50 Christmas Day and my aunt ordered a cake from my besties bakery which I had to pick up. I slept through my alarm and then we had a storm last night so had to fight through snow. My friend mis spelled my cousins name I had to fix it. At some point I misplaced my keys and purse. Keys were found purse was too…in my driveway in the snow. I saw it when I got home. Thank God no one stole it. Dan the bf and I are okay but I feel like this year coming is either going to make or break us. For the last 2 years I asked him to spend New years with me. He said yes. But this year after having a rough fall for many reasons I wasn’t going to ask. I made a promise that I will never beg for attention if they want to they will spend time with you. He didn’t even ask if I had plans let alone ask me to come to him. I did have plans and I had a wonderful night. I love him but sometimes I think it is one sided and I feel like I’m no longer happy. I’ve said as long as I’m happy I’m content with the way things are. So I’m not sure what 2026 will bring in terms of our relationship.
This fall the kiddo I work with started at the next school in our district grades 3-5. The staff and principal are so not my cup of tea and I’m struggling to like my job. It is also more physical it’s 2 stories and the kid has taken to running off. I’m 45 and with my medical issues( most likely foot and back surgery loom in the future) I’m tired. Always tired which affects all aspects of my life. So I’ve started looking into other jobs. I’ve kind of been approached to become an ordained pastor in the NALC. A church I’ve been serving as an authorized lay worship leader has Saud they would help pay for my masters and then I would serve them as their pastor. It’s a perfect transition other than we believe being a pastor isn’t just a job you choose it’s something God places in your heart to be called to do snd honestly I’m not sure I feel it’s my calling. Lots to pray about. My family is holding themselves together pretty well. My friends are loving and supportive. I have a roof over my head which I took a home equity loan on to pay off my credit cards and pay down my debt with high interest. It’s given me some breathing room financially. I see a light at the end of the debt tunnel. I was worried it would lower my credit score as I closed 3 accounts, but my score went from 743 to 830 so it’s excellent.
Overall I’m doing ok. I feel like this year will bring changes and I hope they are positive. I want to wish you all a happy new year with lots of love, good health, and prosperity coming your way. I hope to check in more often and read more, but am not making any promises.