As I pushed my little girl on the swing in the morning I saw the light of the trees. The big spruce from which the swing is suspended, glowed in a most interesting way. I saw both the smaller halo of light around the tree branches and each spruce needle, and a larger sort of light shape that is projected outward in more or less the shame shape, but changing size.
I approached a branch and stared at it for awhile, the morning sun seeming to glint, reflect, even wink, at me. Staring up, against the blue sky, there seemed to me to be at least 3 distinct shades of blue. There was the darkest shade- a deep blue that actually appeared to me as the sky with the presence of some dark fog- so lightly scattered that it was not visible to ordinary sight-but which nevertheless seemed to result in the deep color of blue. And the next was a lighter shade of blue-which appeared to me as though the dark fog was everywhere except in the large changeable aura of the trees-so that the dark blue reached down and receded only at the receding or expanding of the trees light. And still lighter and very near to each tree appeared the lightest shade of blue. It hugged tightly and with extreme precision to the contour of the physical shape of each tree, every branch, twig, needle, outlined in the perfect light shape of itself.
It all appeared very wonderful.
On a whim I walked up to a branchful of spruce needles hanging down near me. I raised my right hand and placed it-in my perception-as if to feel the light emanating close to the branch. I felt a distinct sensation, although I cannot exactly say what it was. I felt it for a few moments, then raised my other hand to cup the branch between them, although not touching physically.
The sensation immediately became a whole body experience. I felt in my head an expansion, and in my body a breeziness. I swayed, as if I was a tree in the breeze. My feelings were not human, anymore, they were tree-like, and experiencing what a tree might feel. Nothing mental went on. I simply felt the tree as if I were the tree. And when I removed my hands, I stopped swaying and just stood there, amazed.
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