We live in a small town. Technically it is a city, and it’s the biggest population center in our county. Lol. But it’s a small town.
We have stoplights and nice restaurants and a Wal-Mart. But it’s not a Super Walmart. It’s not even open 24hours. The only Wal-Mart in the county.
Our neighbors, the only ones that live right next door, are petty as all get out. They’ve had a political sign against their back fence, facing the neighbors behind the , because those folks are of the opposing camp. I’ve never seen quite that much pettiness before.
There are a good number of trees on the property line. From time-to-time, there are sticks and dead branches and such. We pick up anything that falls in our yard and add it out brush pile. We do not think about who’s tree it fell from. These neighbors of ours pick up anything that fell in their yard, assess who’s tree it fell from, and proceed to rake all the debri into that person’s yard.
I just. I cannot fathom. Why?
They’ve also slowly started to encroach on the property line. They’ve gone over more than a foot- and it’s a fairly obtrusive and annoyingly rickety bamboo screen that flops back and forth- right next to our outdoor sitting table. Really it’s not that big a deal; just that we have the table in the only afternoon shade we get on the property and it’d be a production to build a structure somewhere else for shade. What’s silly is these people never speak to us. They never wave back. They’re never around when we’re outside to chat. To just weirdly and aggressively anti-socially encroach is pretty annoying. 
They’ve also recently seem to have taken a great dislike to our dog. Mostly his barking. Our dog only barks at other dogs, however, from outside. Their dog barks at anything with a pulse, and anything without a pulse from inside and outside their house. Everytime I walk into the side yard, their dog is barking at me. It seems to be a hyper aggressive smallish mix. I’m assuming that there some kind of projection going on there.
I share all this because…
I believe there is something important here about energy exchange. These people are very petty. They seem to act out in some kind of aggressive or passive aggressive way towards everyone. it doesn’t just stop if the first attempt didn’t elicit the needed quantity of energy - it continues on to the next thing. It’s sort of funny, in a way.
As I was standing at the swing pushing my kids, staring at the few foot jump they’d made with their flimsy bamboo screen, I thought, they must have sat down together and planned this out. (They’s no way either of them did it on their own, they’re both hopelessly low IQ) And then waited for us to be gone on a day trip or something to move their screen into our side. For what? So that we’d notice it? So that we’d be annoyed that we have weird, anti-social neighbors who seem compelled to get a reaction?
And it clicked. Of course. The energy dynamics. And it makes sense they these people being kind of dumb (no judgement, just an observation) that they are simply unconsciously compelled to behave in ways that results in an energy boost. They’re too low IQ to question their behavior. Most people would maybe feel the temptation to do these things- of course we do! We have moments where we’d like to staple someone’s forehead. But we don’t. Most of us don’t, anyways. We don’t on only because we reflect on it.
But the fact remains that the energetic impulse to do it is there. Why? Why is it there?
Well. I don’t believe there are any imperatives that don’t actually benefit us. Why do I sometimes have an urge to staple someone’s forehead? The only rain why is that it would somehow benefit me. Not socially. Not materially. Not spiritually. Not even emotionally. But energetically? Yes.
I remember when I was a kid… I did this quite naturally and unconsciously. We all did, I think. I teased my brother until he created or got angry or had some kind of emotional outburst. Kids did it to me. I did it to other kids. There’s even a cliche about this; that kids are cruel.
I don’t think kids are cruel. I think they just aren’t yet desensitized to the perceptions of energetic exchange. They don’t know that people aren’t supposed to notice what it feels like to make someone else angry and receive that little boost. Or make someone else laugh really hard. Or annoyed. Or whatever strong emotion that creates that involuntary reaction in another human being. It’s energy. It feels like a relief, or a lightness, or a job suddenly become a bit easier. Life suddenly becomes more accessible. More fluid. A bit of ease slips in.
And as a child there is zero judgemental. Zero self reflection. Zero consideration of how our behavior affects the other- if it’s right or wrong or moral or immoral. It is amoral. It’s not until far into the future of our development that we learn, by being judged by authority figures and punished, that we should judge those behaviors.
And yet, we are only ‘taught’-if it can be called that- we only learn about the very crude outer behavior. The purpose of the behavior is never addressing. Kids never know why they’re doing these things. Especially if the authority figures in their life never acknowledge the need; and the satisfaction of it being met is totally invisible to them. It’s like living in another reality. One that’s just slightly off, but not completely. Just enough that we, as children, learn to consciously disregard our real legitimate need, but the feeling can’t be ignored. And the need cannot be ignored. It’s just forever unconscious, forever unconsciously acted out, and unconsciously satisfied.
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