Note: This post contains trigger words including rape.
Two state troopers came to my door tonight while I was doing my homework and wanted to take my brother down to the station for questioning. They wouldn’t tell me what was going on. He has been arrested for Criminal Sex Acts in the First Degree. My 91 year old grandmother is accusing him of raping her on two separate occasions in the last 3 weeks when he stayed with her on the weekends.
It’s been 9 hours and I still can’t really process what is happening. My little brother has been accused of being a rapist and I just can’t function on that level of thought…
Criminal Sex Acts 1 is Class B Felony (which is basically all of the really terrible crimes that aren’t murder) which has mandatory jail time if convicted. 2 - 20 years in Jail, $30,000 in fines… on top of all of this regardless of if he is convicted or not he is put on the Sex Offender Registry. His life is over even if he doesn’t end up going to jail. Has no formal education or previous job experience. And now he has a Class B Felony on his record and is on the Sex Offender Registry; no one will ever hire him. His entire life will be ruined from this no matter what ends up happening. If he does go to jail, and inmates find out what he’s there for… I will be surprised if they don’t kill him.
The only thing I can process from this is when I call down to the house to find out what was going on after they took him away one of my Uncles told; after giving me this terrible news to “not make it about me, this is about your grandmother.” I just… how can you tell someone your brother is being accused of rape and your next sentence is not “How are you, are you okay, what are you feeling?” it’s “don’t make this about you”.
Why the hell can’t this be about me!? Are my feelings or emotions less important than everyone else’s? And when have I ever made anything that has happened in this family about me? I’m 21 years old and still live at home because after Mom died I haven’t had the opportunity to leave because I have been guilted into staying.
I just… am really tired and don’t want to go to bed… and I need more tequila…
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