Weekend of Blah in Life

So, I’ve been seeing a lot of Chris despite the situation, ever since I decided that I was fine with putting myself at risk since I’m not living with anyone else right now. Since I’m super happy whenever I’m with him, it’s great when I can see him, but every other weekend when he has his 5 year old, I can’t see him. We don’t want to give her mom any reason to fight him on getting her for the weekend (even though her mom and her boyfriend are in high risk job situations right now and i’m coming into contact with no one but Chris). Two weekends ago when he had her, he was too tired to drive to see me after, and I was already settled in for the night cooking dinner, so I didn’t see him at all, all weekend, and probably that’s how it’ll be this weekend.

It’s a really stark reminder of how bleak this whole thing would feel without him in my life. Even before meeting, just having 12 hour phone dates really alleviated some of the loneliness of this situation. I know how hard it must be to homeschool and entertain children, but to have literally no one at your house for months on end, I mean I’d choose the annoying children myself (but I realize sometimes the grass is greener on the other side) lol. For the first few weeks of this, everything really felt normal, which just goes to show how little I actually leave my house generally. Preferring to read a lot or watch netflix. But months of not seeing friends or going out to eat or going to Disney (I mean I haven’t gone to disney all YEAR and if you know me you know how crazy that is. Coming up on my second cancelled disney trip next week :( ). Anyway, I’m thankful for finally partnering up during this crazy situation, certainly the most unlikely scenario of all time since in my years of dating since I was 18 (17 years), I ‘ve had a total of 5 boyfriends and the LONGEST one was a year and a half, so clearly I’ve spent the majority of my life alone. Kinda a crazy thought when you think about it. I also realized about two months ago that I hadn’t had an orgasm with someone else for approximately 5 years and that was only ONE in the last TEN YEARS… so yeah, that’s pretty shocking.

I do have some vacuuming to do that I’ve been putting off for about 3 months or so (lol, I promise my house isn’t as grungy as that sounds), and I have some reading to catch up on (I’m only on book 21 of the year, which isn’t bad, but I was wayyy more ahead on my reading goals on goodreads before all this, it’s been difficult to concentrate on my reading), and I’ll probably make the sprinkles copycat cupcake recipe that I’ve been preparing to make for a while. But, I’m still just sad that I can’t see him, which I guess is how you’re supposed to feel when you’re into someone… haha. Not totally used to that.

I also bought a cricut finally when it was on sale two weeks ago and it came yesterday so I have some playing around to do with that. I have a little side biz that makes me no money (animal/coastal cutout paper wall hangings and sea glass necklaces), but I figured it would be neat to play with this new machine and I can make disney shirts with it for trips which should be really fun and actually save me money compared to what i spend on etsy even though i really could do most of it myself haha.

You can check me out on IG if you want! www.instagram.com/meganscoastalcuts

Probably should list my sea glass necklaces on etsy too. The cutouts haven’t really sold, although they are hard to ship in frames and they look best in those, so that’s prob part of it, but also etsy is just inundated so it may just be hard to get noticed, i don’t know. I took some cool beach pics of the sea glass necklaces so i figured that might help them stand out if someone is searching for that!

It’s also horseshoe crab season but our rescue org has delayed the start because of social distancing and changing protocols. One of the changes also is that we can’t go out with others (was kinda hoping they’d let us go out but maintain distance). Since my beach closes for the birds during the day, the permit allows us on at night and I’m not keen on going out alone, being that I got harassed and had to call the cops two seasons ago. But since I don’t have much choice, I’m just going to take my chances because I want to help the horseshoe crabs and I’m literally the only one who clears my beach and we have major impingements that trap tons of crabs. Yesterday was the first day my beach was closed so I had to take an abbreviated beach walk in the other direction- did save a few crabs there but the larger numbers will be on the closed part of the beach in the rocks. Things should feel a little more normal when I can get out to do that at least.

Hopefully I’ll get a walk in today but it just started raining so it will have to wait. Looks like it’s not going to be cold enough down the shore to get snow flurries tomorrow as I’ve heard other areas might have, so at least there’s that. It’s MAY!!!