The infamous “demi-“ in Daily Thoughts, Ideas, and Experiences

I’m pretty openly asexual around my friends. I don’t come out to people but they seem to sense it about me pretty quickly. It’s fine and dandy no fuss, most of the time. One day a couple of weeks ago, my coworkers we’re discussing that while I was ace, I also like boys. It was a thing for a moment and then it was gone. But I was thinking about it. I usually describe myself as heteroromantic asexual, but I identify more with demiheteroromantic asexual or as I like to say, a complicated straight. I don’t find all of the details necessary since I am straight and that’s not hard to deal with. I’ve never had a serious prospect for more then friendship is it doesn’t matter. But I think, for myself, understanding is important.
The demi- basically means I ”have to develop an emotional bond” before I start to like them. Folks I’ve told this too are either like ”well yeah that’s normal, ” confused, or understanding. But in thinking, it is an abnormal thing. There’s a lot of things that are odd to me about ”normal” people.
Ultimately, it really doesn’t matter. I thinks it’s in my head because I’ve been caught up with thoughts of ”what is it does matter?” What if I meet someone and I need to explain. I’ve gotten stuck in that I don’t want to ruin our friendship place before so I’d like to figure out how to navigate things better.
I think it’s tough because it is hard to understand or explain. I just have to hold on to the hope that if things are meant to be they’re meant to be and that I’ll be grown enough to make some effort myself.