I think that I am going to once again give this a shot in the hopes that it will help me clear my mind and elevate some of the stress I am feeling. I know in the past I have not been overly successful in writing down my feelings. I think there are a lot of reasons for that, not the least of which is fear of judgment. I worry a lot about what others think of me, mostly because I don’t think that highly of myself. I good friend of mine has always told me that I undervalue myself and that I need to stop that. Far easier said than done. He also told me that if I am not going to write for myself that it is a waste of time to write. I am going to write for a week and if I am successful that I will post them; so if you are reading this you know I made a week and have made a fresh start in life. ( in several ways)
I am not even sure where a good place to start will be. Work? Sex? Family? Personal Turmoil? They all seem like excellent choices to open with but I am not sure which is the biggest concern in my life right now. They all seem muddled together in one large problem that I can’t sort through. Part of the problem with writing is finding a starting point that will help me understand the “rest of the story”. I have yet to figure out that starting point but I hope that I will get there. Until that point, this might be a little disjointed and difficult to follow. That’s okay though, I will follow what I am writing about and those who can’t get inside my head with me should probably not be there anyway.
Last updated July 26, 2018