6/9/05: Craig's friends in Victim of Society

Well today at work when Craig came in, I seriously fell in love with him all over again. It was so weird. He looked soooo amazingly hot. Like even hotter then before. And he was being so sweet and we were laughing together and everything seemed fine. I seriously hate how my feelings for him keep growing when they are supposed to goooo awayyyyyy. Tonight me and andrea went to CK cafe but didnt stay long because we wanted to go hang out with Jose. And I really wanted Craig to be there and I was all excited to hangout with Jose and his friends. Me and Andrea got lost trying to find the place and like these cop cars were chasing after somebody and this helicopter had a light shining and we were like right in the middle of it, we were so scared lol. Then we FINALLY found Jose and we were all talking outside and then Col, who is Craig's best friend walked out and suddenly I felt like --shit--what the hell am I doing here? With Craig's friends? This is weird..im not supposed to be here....and I started getting all paranoid thinking oh shit what if craig comes here and sees me just chilling with HIS friends. Like what would he think? He'd so get mad. He always gets mad at me for weird shit like that. Then we all went inside and I kept thinking about how craig would be mad and wtf would i do if craig just walked in. Then Jose's phone rings and its CRAIG. And jose starts telling him all the ppl that are there and i was just like shit!!!!!!!!! and andrea was like OH crap dont say us!! so he didnt we stopped him just in time lol. But I KNOW col is going to say we were there and then craigs going to ask me "so i hear u were hanging out with my friends last night" ughhhhhh I dont get why i am so nervous about this. Its lame I know...its just its hard to stay on good terms with craig. it seems like me and him are always getting in weird fights or getting mad at eachother for the lamest things. and after tonite, knowing things were so cool between us, i dont want to lose that.