2/14/2004 in Victim of Society

Today was kinda a weird day at school. I wasn't feeling very social so at break I just walked around. In all my classes, when I had some free time I wrote in my journal and at the end of the day I filled up about 10 pages. I was just writing everything that came to my mind just to be doing something. Writing is kinda a stress reliever for me, so today I just kept on writing and writing. At lunch I was sitting by myself for awhile and then Jamie and Kim came over and sat with me. Jamie's one of my good friends but I don't really like Kim. And now all of a sudden Jamie and Kim are like best friends so we never hang out much anymore since she's always with Kim. So then a bunch of other people came over and I just sorta sat there staring off into space because I didn't really feel like talking to them today. Hopefully I snap out of this weird mood I'm in. I guess I've kinda isolated myself from the group for awhile now. I'm sorta drifting apart from them I think. Like when I went over to stand with all of them by the tree, it was like they didn't even notice I was there. I felt like that girl in the Numb music video by Linkin Park. I can't wait to leave Bonita High. I hate it so much. Me, Jamie and George are taking this test and if we pass, we automatically graduate from high school and can go straight to a junior college. I really really hope I pass. And I really really hope things change.