Hmph in meh...

So…when she texted me about this evening she asked if I could catch the bus to her by 6 to go out there.

😐

I knew that was coming.

I told her I’d see if a friend would take me. And I did check with a friend, and asked if she wanted to go to this party. She still has her niece, so she can’t take me and I’ll be damned if I take a 2hr bus ride and don’t know where the hell I’m going.

Daughter got off later than expected. I’m home alone in pajamas. RJ asked where I was. I said still with the kids. Said I still haven’t connected with my friend.

She trying to make it seem like it won’t be a party without me. She got VIP passes through her job to see Wyclef Jean perform with the St. Louis Symphony. She asked someone else. I didn’t even know she was going or was interested.

Again, I’m hormonal, but I am deeply hurt. People aren’t meant to be isolated, but I’m just tired of being mistreated when I give nothing but myself to people. I got her a gift for Christmas. I told her she didn’t have to get me anything. She only talked about getting me something after learning that I’d gotten something for her. Some fingerless mittens. Right.

I like being around others, but I don’t like being around others because they are full of shit.

I need this night alone. Not like I’m not use to it.

Last updated March 11, 2018