Jon and I worked a function yesterday. It had been awhile since we had a full shift together so it was nice hanging out with him again. It also made me realize how much less I have the urge to be all over him compared to how I felt in the beginning. His girlfriend is out of town this week in Ireland so of course he was asking if I wanted to come over, etc. I am on my period this week, so it is a good thing that I had to say no to that offer. Honestly, I feel more of a desire to work on my marriage than to run around with him lately. He also gets petty jealous at work and it annoys me. There is this really cool guy Louis that works at the pool and he kind of reminds me of my friend John that I used to work with at Wal-Mart. He is really smart and speaks a lot of different languages and is actually studying international languages. So anyways, I have wanted to get to know him more and so we finally exchanged numbers and facebook info yesterday and of course Jon sees us talking and is like "Ugh, I know what you are doing. That is so fucked up" I'm like, um I can have friends... I dont know. It is just dumb that he gets jealous if I talk to other guys.
Anyway, functions are easy to work and you always make at least 100 bucks in tips. It was a bridal shower, and half the time we just sat around talking because they were just opening gifts and playing games. The only hard part about working functions is setting the whole thing up and then cleaning it up afterwards.
I was home by 3 and went to the grocery store to pick up stuff for dinner. Rena and Jeff came over and I made a macaroni casserole and brussel sprouts with bacon. They brought over some Tullamore Dew and everything turned out pretty delicious! Dave was drinking a lot and after they left we went up to bed and he started talking and talking about everything on his mind. It was nice because it is so much easier to have a conversation with him after he has been drinking. We weren't arguing, just talking about everything and I finally realized what is going on in his mind because he is always so closed off. After our conversation, it really made me realize. Do I want a marriage or do I want to be in Washington. I can only choose one and it makes me sad. Most of the time I choose Washington, because I feel like Dave doesn't even care about our relationship, but after hearing him last night it really made me sad to think that he really does care and I could be giving up on something amazing. I know I have five years to figure things out, but I am starting to think I might end up making a life here and staying with Dave. This place isn't -that- bad and it really is growing on me. Washington could always be my vacation spot. I guess, we shall see...
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