Welp in just testing

I just saw my sister’s house. It’s super cute. It’s a perfect first house.

I’m beyond jealous.

And I feel really bad about it.

I mean today was the first day she felt the flutters of her baby. I’m on the fence about having a baby. I think I like being pregnant and having a newborn is a big draw but I Dunno if I want to Raise a kid.

But she’s pregnant, walking through her new house and it’s all because her hubby’s grandfather died and left them a big hunk of cash.

I don’t wish anyone to die but noone on my side or Will’s side is leaving us anything when they go but more bills.

I don’t wanna find a new job cause I LIKE IT. But I’m not moving on with my life at all all this pay check.

My money is spent as fast as I make it.

I’m never getting the cruise. I thought we’d be in a place to put a deposit on it by August. But the money is gone the same day it comes.

He still hasn’t paid off the tv. I have to check our joint account to see REALLY where our money is going.

Also

I’m on birth control now. I was really excited to have no condom sex and now I’m just depressed. And I know Will is gonna be humping me cause we haven’t had sex in 2 weeks and Saturday is our Only day and I’m not in the mood.

I don’t want sex. I want new clothes and a house.