Freefaller ⋅ 31

Busted, broken, and bawdy. Trying to pick up my pieces until I resemble myself again.

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I haven’t written in too long. There’s a lot to put down, but not enough ambition to pour it all out. So they’ve been gathering in bits in my beard and stuck in my hair. I’ve been brushing them o...


June 22, 2018

Choking back tears in Dead-end

Two overdraft fees have me deep in the red. Choking back tears just thinking about going into the bank and begging them to waive them. How can I pay them money I don’t have? I’ve been selling ev...


June 22, 2018

Echo Chamber in Dead-end

Sometimes I wish I was a duck, My screams never making a sound, Then I wouldn’t give a fuck, And there’d be no need to be earth bound.


June 22, 2018

Dead-end in Dead-end

*Brainstorming for a horror revenge movie screenplay based on my life** shrugs No matter what I do, I end up sliding back down to the same shitty pit again and again. I’m not strong enough to de...


June 10, 2018

Glamorous in The Road Ahead

Spent today in drag at Pridefest Milwaukee. Not bad for a Fischer Price My First Drag Queen. Got a couple of compliments on my wig and was told I looked like Carol Burnett. Ate delicious pizza wi...


May 26, 2018

I did it! in The Road Ahead

Tuesday marked the end of 25 years of silence. I filed my police report and the Investigative Unit is working on it now. It was really difficult, but totally worth it. My sisters will be making t...


Get your clicking finger ready! Here we go! https://imgur.com/zbvQeCj https://imgur.com/8slMxm1 https://imgur.com/oyADbc1 https://imgur.com/Pf0zTNu I’m doing a bunch more tomorrow, so brace yours...


I posted my pictures on Imgur, tried copying the link into the Insert Image tool here. No dice. Tried copying the link to the Insert Hyperlink tool, no dice. :( I think I’ve gotten it to work...


May 18, 2018

First Sale! in The Road Ahead

I wish it wasn’t such a pain in the ass to get pictures uploaded here. I’d love to post some of my work and travels and left a comment on the new PB Overlord’s entry about it. I just want to up...


UPDATE IT’S WORKING!!!! He’s blocked me on Facebook, but the truth has already been sent to everyone. I’m ecstatic right now! :D :D :D Some of his friends were also coworkers, and I did email h...


That letter to his wife was just the beginning. I’ve emailed his job about who he actually is and just finished up a draft of a similar letter. I unblocked him on Facebook so I can message all of...


Complimentary Trigger Warning. Hello. I’m Andrew, C and J’s big brother. I’m writing to let you know who you’re married to. This is difficult for me to bring up, but everyone should know t...


May 06, 2018

Huh? in The Road Ahead

Today flew by, but that happens when you’re dissociated. I wanted to get some wood burning in, but I’ve been shaking so badly all day that there was no point. No appetite, dizzy, and nauseated, I...


Trigger warning for all you fine folks out there, related to bad things happening to children.```````````````````````````` ````````````````````````````````````````````` Last night my heart brok...


April 25, 2018

TFW in The Road Ahead

You’re in the craft aisle and decide you can’t trust yourself with an xacto right now. But I did pick up a wood burning kit, hopefully I can do some neat things with it. I think I’m getting to ...


April 22, 2018

Sorry Y’all in The Road Ahead

I’m inconsistent. I pledge to myself that I’m going to write more frequently, and I don’t. Wonderful, caring people note me and I take a week or more or just never get back to them. Friends messa...


I abhor violence but I swear to god if you rattle my cage, I will lose whatever restraint I have. I want to blast a hole in the fabric of the universe or harness this fury and take this cage some...


I abhor violence but I swear to god if you rattle my cage, I will lose whatever restraint I have. I want to blast a hole in the fabric of the universe or harness this fury and take this cage some...


April 14, 2018

Please... in My Poetry Slams

I need someone to listen very carefully. Take me to the edges of the world. And hold my hand without a word. While I unleash this bottomless scream. I feel like I’m going to implode My body be...


April 14, 2018

Garbage day in My Poetry Slams

Take me out. Out to the curb. Curb your expectations. I’ll always let you down. Down here’s where we eat. Eat our just desserts. ———— Feasting on the bones of who I used to be Leave me hungr...


That all the emotional work I’ve put in, the physical pain I’ve endured, that the healing wouldn’t lead anywhere. I thought, naively I suppose, that once I reached a point in the healing process...


April 12, 2018

Waking Thoughts in The Road Ahead

I don’t belong here. Here, meaning life. I’ve always been isolated, the idea of being on the outside looking in prevalent even back in elementary school. Back then it was the abuse and the fal...


April 05, 2018

Untitled in My Poetry Slams

Undaunted by the prospects Of empty sifting pans I still got out of bed ```````````````````````````````````` Thirty times I’ve been around Six times I ran aground But who’s keeping score? ```````...


April 05, 2018

Bread crumbs in The Road Ahead

There’s not too many things that I keep to myself. Hell, one of my first entries in here was basically a compilation of the abuse and horrors I’ve been through, and that was hard. This though, t...


April 05, 2018

Slinging rings in The Road Ahead

Well, just one…Recently posted this ad on Facebook. Don’t miss out on a chance of a lifetime to own a piece of my personal history! For a limited time, you can now purchase the ACTUAL wedding ri...


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