Freefaller ⋅ 31

Busted, broken, and bawdy. Trying to pick up my pieces until I resemble myself again.

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February 14, 2019

GAME CHANGER in New Chapter

So, yesterday, my world got flipped turned upside down. In a good way! First, I heard back about my interview and I’m going in for a working interview later today to see if it’d be a good match....


February 11, 2019

Let's Play! in The Road Ahead

If you play on Steam/PC or Xbox, leave me your handle and we can play awesome games together. Steam/PC : Stardew Valley, Path of Exile, Tabletop Simulator, Civilization 4 and 5, Apex Legends, Du...


February 11, 2019

Off the beaten path in New Chapter

I woke up to what I thought was a dead Celine, but after letting it sit for a few minutes, she started right up. It’s weird and is great for a big bout of anxiety right away in the morning. :P wh...


February 09, 2019

Roller West Coaster in The Road Ahead

Friends, Romans, countrymen, lend me your ears… Things are strange. Celine, my van and home, died on me two weeks ago. Got the alternator and battery replaced, things seemed okay at first. Then f...


January 25, 2019

“¯\_(ツ)_/¯“ in Dead-end

I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore. My days blur into the next, I wake up to a dead phone and have no idea when in the day I am. Did I depression sleep until late in the afternoon? Did my brain ...


January 03, 2019

I'm Still...Me in The Road Ahead

waves tentatively Hey folks, it’s me. I’ve managed to make it through another number of days without doing anything stupid. While the voice itself has quieted for the most part, I continue to be ...


December 12, 2018

Brpt in The Road Ahead

I want to feel wanted. :/ I don’t want to feel like I’m needy because I enjoy being physically intimate. long sigh I’ve made myself sick tonight over this, the deep pangs in my stomach a physica...


December 12, 2018

Panic Switch in The Road Ahead

I’m researching my options on getting some help. I wish I wasn’t like this. I wish I could be better. I’m fighting just to keep my head above water and I know it doesn’t have to be this way. Righ...


December 12, 2018

No Shuteye in The Road Ahead

Have you seen things out of the corner of your eye and you don’t know if it was real or not? Maybe the knot in your stomach tells you it was nothing and to put it out of your mind. I’m tempted t...


December 12, 2018

Scary Chatterboxing in The Road Ahead

I feel most alive when the hoofbeats of Deaths horse pound in my veins and my souls fit to explode from my frame, a spiritual supernova that will engulf me and leave a tear in the world where I u...


December 12, 2018

Sad babbling in The Road Ahead

There should be a word for the deceptively quiet and small feeling you get in the back of your mind when you resign yourself to buying that one way ticket to the long farewell. I don’t belong an...


December 11, 2018

Real talk in The Road Ahead

I think…one day, I shall take a long walk at the waters edge, feel the sun on my skin, the breeze caress me, and wander out into the sea never to be heard from or seen again. ❤️


I don’t know if it crept back in on its own or if it was merely softened to such a volume as to be present but unaccounted for, but that under current of suicidal murmuring is back and I hate it....


So I’ve been in California for just over a month now. And while it isn’t the cure for my depression, it has certainly helped. I went almost three weeks without a suicidal thought or urge and it f...


September 15, 2018

Big Changes! in The Road Ahead

I haven’t written in too long. There’s a lot to put down, but not enough ambition to pour it all out. So they’ve been gathering in bits in my beard and stuck in my hair. I’ve been brushing them o...


June 22, 2018

Choking back tears in Dead-end

Two overdraft fees have me deep in the red. Choking back tears just thinking about going into the bank and begging them to waive them. How can I pay them money I don’t have? I’ve been selling ev...


June 22, 2018

Echo Chamber in Dead-end

Sometimes I wish I was a duck, My screams never making a sound, Then I wouldn’t give a fuck, And there’d be no need to be earth bound.


June 22, 2018

Dead-end in Dead-end

*Brainstorming for a horror revenge movie screenplay based on my life** shrugs No matter what I do, I end up sliding back down to the same shitty pit again and again. I’m not strong enough to de...


June 10, 2018

Glamorous in The Road Ahead

Spent today in drag at Pridefest Milwaukee. Not bad for a Fischer Price My First Drag Queen. Got a couple of compliments on my wig and was told I looked like Carol Burnett. Ate delicious pizza wi...


May 25, 2018

I did it! in The Road Ahead

Tuesday marked the end of 25 years of silence. I filed my police report and the Investigative Unit is working on it now. It was really difficult, but totally worth it. My sisters will be making t...


Get your clicking finger ready! Here we go! https://imgur.com/zbvQeCj https://imgur.com/8slMxm1 https://imgur.com/oyADbc1 https://imgur.com/Pf0zTNu I’m doing a bunch more tomorrow, so brace yours...


I posted my pictures on Imgur, tried copying the link into the Insert Image tool here. No dice. Tried copying the link to the Insert Hyperlink tool, no dice. :( I think I’ve gotten it to work...


May 17, 2018

First Sale! in The Road Ahead

I wish it wasn’t such a pain in the ass to get pictures uploaded here. I’d love to post some of my work and travels and left a comment on the new PB Overlord’s entry about it. I just want to up...


UPDATE IT’S WORKING!!!! He’s blocked me on Facebook, but the truth has already been sent to everyone. I’m ecstatic right now! :D :D :D Some of his friends were also coworkers, and I did email h...


That letter to his wife was just the beginning. I’ve emailed his job about who he actually is and just finished up a draft of a similar letter. I unblocked him on Facebook so I can message all of...


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