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AAAAARRRRRHHHHHGGGGGG I’ve been doing too much! Making boundaries, creating hurdles, armor, obstacles! I want to CONTROL the situation instead of let it FLOW and create harmony through current....

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I feel my heart has been gentled right open and everything is allowed in, and out, and it’s just A LOT. It’s a lot but, there is no tension. No strain. No boundaries. My only security is the...

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My energy is off the charts. I’m in my feeling body almost all the time. Not that mind and thought doesn’t rear up and take over, but, it’s increasingly obvious, discordant, and easily moved thr...

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An odd dream in which I was floating on something over the world, which was spread out before me like an intricately designed look-and-feel exhibit. It was so small, and I floated above it as i...

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I felt an awe and spaciousness. A recognition of a Presence which was not a mere presence, but something awesome and not from this place. Something benign and full of a love that transcends spec...

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Ever since I first heard about the Cosmic Tower (CT) a few days ago, it has not left my awareness. I feel giddy with excitement! I feel as if I’ve met my best friend that I didn’t know I had. I...

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I felt a transition, and there was a giant tsunami wave to my right. Like a wall of water. I looked out at the basin-shaped land before me, full of people and their society, and took one step ba...

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Has suddenly entered my life. I feel giddy. Smiling like a kid who just found out she could have a horse. Spontaneous joy and giggles erupt for seemingly no reason. I feel joy like it has neve...

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Last night I was drawn to the clear dark sky and, as I stared at Venus, so yellowy-orange and bright, I began to notice at the same time a concentric circular vortex-exactly resembling the subtl...

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And present I feel really good Like I have caught hold of something really real and for the first time can trust that it is so. I feel recognition in my body. I am present. I believe my own...

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Presence, Trusting, Spontaneous, Creating is what I am assigned to do, in order to move through and heal my wounds of Dissociation, Abandonment, Futility, and Care blackmailing. Ooh. That l...

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I definitely never thought of my mom as a failure. but what was it that she didn’t fail at? Certainly, she never raised me. She never endeavored to care about or for me. She never made it he...

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Do I feel? It’s an odd longing. Mixed in with an inability to demand it. I used to feel bad, or guilt, for wanting to feel better. I felt guilt as a matter of self protection. If I had betray...

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I’m outside, writing. And I noticed as I look up, the intense aura of these 2 trees across the street. I’m sitting under the blessed pine which is about 3 times the hight of our house and acts l...

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pics always seem to happen after I’ve already started my whatever journey I’m doing. It’s not very scientific of me. But, it does seem to be largely a chronic pattern. In which, I spontaneou...

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I was younger - or at least had a younger body- and I entered with some acquaintances a sort of park. It was resigned for young adults. Of which I guess maybe I still am, especially realizing we...

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Bombs have been cracking my skill open this week. One after another. Bam. Bam. Bam. Brains on the floor. What if I’m not wrong? For as long as I can recall, I have had a basic and unexamined ...

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Vision changes, a perception of spaciousness, the light and depth seem somehow hyper real- surreal. Many describe their journey as an instantaneous transition to something else - some other ki...

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Anything happen on the 9-9-9 for anybody? I believe this time is truly magical. If I didn’t have a direct perception of it, I would certainly know by how hard the system tries to distract peop...

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I’m sitting here at the park with my kids and noticed that I can really see the auras around the trees very clearly. It’s midday. Typically I only “notice” them at dawn or dusk. I know that the...

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And a veil of innocence dissipates. As I began the process of getting our property off of the tax rolls, last year, I had no idea what I was actually doing. I began with anger-outrage, reall...

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Of weather restoration and clearing the skies. The very first point, which may be difficult for some, is to observe the difference between natural weather and unnatural weather. Because what I ...

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Is something I’m beginning to come to terms with. One of the things that has always been a thought presence for me is a disdain for emotional indulgence. The more that I feel into this presenc...

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And my stinking cute tiny wood campstove Although halfway through the morning the sky went all funky again; I can already feel it clearing, I don’t need to test it. Kind of makes me think ...

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