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My tone maybe? in random rantings of self pity
My tone sucks. My tone of voice sucks. Why does my tone of voice never reflect what I’m saying? People tend to ask me all the time if I’m being serious. Are you serious? Or are you being sarcasti...
The self help book I'm reading in Random thoughts
I was surprised to notice that I don’t really agree with a lot of the authors points. Crazy to realize that I really do just have my own thoughts and opinions. I knew they were in there somewhere...
Where are you supposed to let feelings out? in Random thoughts
This is it? This is what you’re supposed to do? Or pay a therapist? So, either write them in the online diary where nobody will ever care to read, or take note of them, or pay someone to care. Be...
who cares about the date in I'm making this up as I go along
I don’t see the point in only missing someone on the anniversary of their death. Or the anniversary of the day they first kissed you. I think that it’s okay to celebrate the anniversary every day...
confusion in random rantings of self pity
I’m confused. I look at myself and I see that I’m not happy. I haven’t been in a very very long long time. That’s awfully scary. To think that I’ve just been putting up with it all this time. I d...
where? in random rantings of self pity
Where is the depression coming from? I will say that there has been a vast improvement since adjusting my meds. Which has been so wonderful. I feel unappreciated. I feel like I’m less than human....
DRAIN YOU in the stories running threw my head recently
ok, so there are three young girls. They are best friends. A trio you could call them. They are sitting in a room, as they usually are, listening to an old favorite. The suns gone down for the ev...
how in random rantings of self pity
how? just how did I end up so pathetic and alone? I'm so very sick of feeling lonely. I have no friends left. I threw them all away. and for what? why? why did I do that? don't I value anyone? di...
June 22, 2002 in random rantings of self pity
I'm missing you. It's been 12 years. I still remember your smile. I still remember your voice. I still remember how I felt when I found out you were dead.
Sailor Moon in Random thoughts
It's amazing that when I watch it now, I see it so differently than how I saw it so many years ago. I will be honest, I went a really long time without watching it at all. Like, somehow I didn't ...
doesn't matter in random rantings of self pity
I figured out why it's just so easy to not care what people think about me. It's because nobody really cares about me anyway. I don't think most people know my name let alone care about me at all...
on my own in Random thoughts
No drinking, no smoking. You have to deal with these thoughts and feelings all on your own. Oh what I would do for a fifth of tequila and a pack of smokes right now. I need to figure out a way to...
I need in random rantings of self pity
I think that I need a good cry. I have nothing to cry about. I just feel like crying. I think it's ok to cry. I like doing it sometimes. What I mean is, when I watch emotional movies, and things ...
oh my in Random thoughts
I'm having a panic attack right now. I'm sick to my stomach as we speak. I'm so stressed right now that I'm shaking. I feel like I've completely lost control over my life. I feel helpless. We are...
Today in Random thoughts
Lots of sleeping took place today. Don't know why I'm so freaking tired. I'll just take the easy way out and blame the weather. haha It's not what I call artificial tired either. It's full blown ...
uhg in random rantings of self pity
I feel ugly. Oh so ugly. None of my clothes fit me any more. Because I keep gaining weight. I can't seem to stop it. I haven't been to the gym in over 2 weeks because of how sick I was, but even ...
down and out in random rantings of self pity
I'm not even sure that I can articulate my feelings right now. I hurt my back on Monday, and the pain was so freaking bad that I was laying in my bed wishing myself dead. And that didn't strike m...
The List in random rantings of self pity
Here's that list you've been asking for. List of all of the people that you can count on and/or trust: 1. Yourself That is all.
True Friends are Forever in I'm making this up as I go along
It was high school the last time I'd saw her. Which, I must not lie, was quite some time ago. We were inseparable for most of our school years, right up until college. And then I saw her. I saw h...
