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21. I am a very nervous flyer. I thought I’d get better when I started flying all the time for work, but if anything, I think I’ve gotten worse. I hate to let it show—especially in front of w...

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At the rate I’m going, this will take forever… 11. I still feel the presence of my grandmother on my mom’s side. I don’t know why. We weren’t particularly close when she was alive, but we di...

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I talked with LDL on the phone last night, and he’s growing impatient and grouchy. I can see it from his side, because I’ve been toying around with the idea of moving out there for years now (s...

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I’m stealing this format from smiling jack chance. I’m breaking it down into even smaller bite-sized chunks because…well, I just want to. If you’re lucky (and patient), I’ll come back from tim...

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LDL is still working on getting me to move to San Francisco without a job prospect. It’s really, really tempting when he sweet talks me like that. But you know good and well that I’m such a ra...

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(1) Visiting the man I once desperately, heart-wrenchingly loved with every fiber of my being (only to have him stomp on my heart and shred my hopes into a million tiny pieces. Yet after 5 yea...

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So much for writing a lot more. But I can say that I had an okay weekend. Starting with getting good and dee-runk on Friday evening, and ending with more unpacking joy. When does the fun ever ...

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No. Not The ‘Hammer. I’ve noticed that I tend to write more frequently right before I make a big change in my life. I want to let stuff gush out of me. It feels so comforting to get these wor...

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Um yeah. It’s true. The Jackhammer doesn’t necessarily want to work with me, he wants to work on me (duh). We’d gotten quite tipsy on Sunday evening, and I promised to go over there last nigh...

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Okay, okay, okay!! No more of The Jackhammer. I just needed to prove to myself that I wasn’t missing out of a fantastic opportunity and a new-found life in the movie and television industry (y...

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After I posted my last entry, The Jackhammer must’ve read my mind. Because less than 20 minutes later, he called me. I should’ve taken that as another sign, but out of sheer loneliness and des...

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Finally, FINALLY have shit piled into new loft. I don’t want to say that I’ve moved because it certainly doesn’t feel like I have. I feel like I packed and ran. Got the biggest lump in my thr...

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I am exhausted and there’s still so much packing and tearing things down before the movers get here in the morning. But guess what? I have to sleep and that’s all there is to it. I’m going to...

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So last night I had a dream that my dad was flying my brother and me somewhere cross-country. We were coming in for a landing and the plane started sputtering and coughing and chugging, and I a...

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This packing business is for the birds. It depresses the hell out of me, and is making me second-guess the fact that I didn’t buy the loft. And after talking with my dad just a few minutes ago...

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Started about four entries this week, and none of them are working out quite right. I don’t know what to say without bitching. I know that’s what a diary is for…venting. But, a girl can only ...

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The packing process has begun. To make matters worse, the realtors are now showing people my place. MY place! That makes me so sad, but it’s also embarrassing when they come banging on my doo...

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Updates on Various: New Living Situation: I’ve found a new loft to move into. It’s a mere 5 blocks or so from where I live now. The view sucks. I will basically be looking directly into som...

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1. I now have to worry about Mr. Aggressive Jackhammer (from previous entry). He’s called me four times tonight to have a drink with him (I blew off the photo shoot). I finally called him bac...

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Man. I’ve been hung over all day. And now I need to rally because I’m going out again tonight with Jen and another girl from work (the girl I was with when I met New York Fling from a month or...

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I tried so hard not to wake on the wrong side of the bed today. Really. I even went back to sleep for a while, only waking to the sound of my phone ringing and realizing that I’d left myself w...

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…pairs of gold shoes?? Apparently I do.

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I did this two years ago and the year before. I wanted to do this every year in my diary, but the great OD outage last year ran through 9/11. Remember? My diary will now take a moment of silen...

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So I’m in that phase of “big change” where I’m getting a little excited about it. I haven’t gotten past the stressed out phase yet, because frankly, I don’t have a game plan in place. But I’m ...

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I’m back. This time from a whirlwind trip to Las Vegas, Los Angeles, and San Francisco. Things that have happened during my time away: 1. Katrina, of course. Astounding work by mother natur...

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