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Day 3 of a long weekend and I’m trying to keep work out of my head. I’m on duty for the week starting tomorrow, but our duty isn’t so terrible (or at least haven’t been so far, there was that on...

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I’m simplifying my resolutions. - read 40 books - save (and/or donate) 25% of my income - find personal value outside of “productivity” - brush teeth every day - moisturize every day - do deep ...

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I don’t want to go back to work. That’s it. That’s the entry. I feel like if I didn’t have to work I’d be much more… I was going to say “productive”, but that’s not right. Let’s say “involve...

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I have been doing this same survey since 2014, but since I jumped journals I don’t have the full archive anymore. 2022 2023 2024 What did you do in 2025 that you’d never done before? Worked at ...

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This was a weird year for resolutions. I was very much letting the year steer itself, both hands off the wheel. Which resulted in me not striving towards these goals in the slightest. So How di...

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As suggested by @thatglasgowwitch I am connected to my Pantheon in a way that brings me peace and satisfaction I play a role in the development of the Positive Space Ambassador Program I cu...

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What are 3 of the best decisions you’ve made over the last 12 months? Finally accepting that despite everything I feel about my employer, it is a job with unbeatable pay, time off, and secu...

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I’m feeling weird and introspective tonight. I have not gotten into the decorating mood like I thought I would in the previous entry. Normally we’re an “outdoor lights on November 12th” and “C...

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It’s been quiet, thank goodness. No more vet trips. No more hospital trips. So of course my friends lives are imploding. Mandy’s asshole husband told her he wants a divorce, and immediately mov...

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I know saying this out loud is like putting some kind of cosmic spot light on me, but everyone in my family, except for me, has been to the emergency room/vet this year and holy fuck that can st...

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M’s surgery went well. He’s sleeping now. I called my supervisor and told her about M’s surgery and the aftercare. She told me not to worry about the course next week. Things are looking up. S...

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M goes for surgery tomorrow. He’s terrified. I’m anxious. It’s a fairly standard procedure (ureteroscopy), but he’s afraid of the anaesthetic. I mean, they’re also operating on his dick, so that...

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Where do I even start? It’s a sign of my mental health that I’ve basically stopped writing again. I am mentally exhausted all the time because of the see-saw of emotion - elation at being home ...

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It feels like writing this entry is admitting its the end of my holiday. Despite typing this at home, where I’ve been for over 24 hours now. Reality sucks Friday morning my sister and I snuck o...

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This has not been the holiday I feel like it should have been. First off, I feel bad for mom. She’s been dealing with a problem with her septic for over a year. She was really hopeful about me...

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Yesterday I managed to sleep in. We ate a breakfast of greek yogurt, home made granola and fresh blueberries, before my sister asked if I wanted to go to the pet store with her. It was about an ...

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I’m fortunate that my mom still lives in my childhood home. So going to visit mom feels like “going home”. I frequently call both my home with M and my childhood home,”Home”. It’s wild because ...

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It is fascinating - from an emotionless perspective - how everything is interconnected. How reading can impact writing, how struggle can impact creativity. I know that once I wrote entries lik...

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So I’ve been fucking up my meds and the side effects are really annoying. I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts, but fortunately they’re run of the mill anxiety and not persistent wanting to not e...

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Maybe I can exorcise this bullshit from my head by writing it down. I can tell you that it’s been plaguing me all weekend, so if this works, great. On Thursday I did a small presentation at wh...

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This is based on Chapter 1’s exercises in Thorn Mooney’s The Witches Path. Air Are you a witch? I have a hard time saying yes, but I also don’t think no is the correct answer. Aspiring witch?...

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Two day work weeks should be the norm :D Thursday I spent most of the day applying to University (note to self, keep working on it), and then at noon I happened to see that there was a meeting o...

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The first three days of my new job were interesting. Day 1 was during a heatwave, and I had to leave my car at the bus terminal and walk all over the base sweating my guts out. I was met at the ...

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It has taken a concerted effort to not have this coming week ruin this past weekend. On Friday I put in a leave day for Monday (today) because I just really did not want to go to work. And M was...

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I haven’t been at my new job for a month yet. I’ve spent the last 3 weeks training online and I was just about to start doing shit for real when my supervisor pulled me into her office. They’r...

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