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Guys, I’m sick.
1) I violently coughed for 2 whole weeks with no medical attention, thinking it would get better/go away. It didn’t, so I went to the ER last weekend. Turns out, I had pneumonia...
Pneumonia + no PTO time sucks.
Also, how TF am I working harder than my healthy co-workers?
I don’t have bipolar/PTSD/ADHD/anxiety or any other mental illness. I also don’t have tachycardia or any heart issue they’re testing me for.
The real reasons for my perceived health (mental as w...
Sorry, but I can’t do this shit anymore. I fucking tried. I fucking fought. HARD. But I lost.
Every time I go inpatient, somebody dies.
My manager passed away.
3 days was long enough. Four times in one year is too much. I might apply for disability. The diagnoses and pills keep adding up.
I’m in the hospital.
Finally told my sperm donor what I thought of him.
Now, I’m homeless.
Worth it, though.
I meant it when I said I hope he dies and burns in hell.
My cousin Rufus.
He’s the reason I love big dogs. He taught me so much. Taught me how to train dogs. Introduced me to vegetarianism. At the age of nine, I had my first job as his assistant. He p...
I just don’t have words.
My cousin passed this morning.
My baby brother. Oh, that boy. My first true love.
Well, he’s not a baby anymore. He’s 21, will be 22 near the end of the month.
He’s enlisting. Swearing in on Thursday. Got his assignments–Ft....
Well, so much has happened that I don’t remember if I actually wrote everything out, and things are going well for me so I don’t want to look at my past entries right now just in case I get trigg...
Sometimes, I’m ok.
But today, I would like to swallow all my pills.
Not gonna do it, but I want to.
I was using my dad’s car, because mine was repossessed.
Now, I’m sitting in my program, about to go to lunch.
His car isn’t there anymore.
It’s been repossessed.
Sorry for the previous entry! I wasn’t finished with it all the way.
Turns out, my phone was hacked. I knew something seemed different. I googled the things that were happening, and confirmed th...
I had major surgery in November 2016. My beloved Grandma passed the very next month.
I was hospitalized last summer. My Nanny passed in October.
That’s when I was sure that my Grandma’s death w...
Life is hard. That’s why I just spend most of the month in 2 hospitals.
My 5 year old cousin had (unexpected) brain surgery
My car got repossessed, and I have no idea how I’ll e getting around
I no longer want to die.
I’m bout to be extracted from my room and forced to go back to the hospital.
All I want, is what I fucking deserve. Someone to listen. To believe me. To tell me I didn’t deserve all the abuse I suffered. To tell me I deserve better. To tell me I’m worth it.
And YOU wan...
I’m here. Alive. Somewhat stable after 5 nights in the hospital. Should have stayed longer. New medicine is expensive, over 1,000.
I’m on my way to the hospital. Doesn’t matter. I’m killing myself as soon as I’m released. Can no longer do this.
It might be time to go back to the hospital.
I’m in total anguish over this.
Lord, I need your help.
Last Friday, I was in the living room with my mom and the baby. Mom went to sleep, then baby followed suit. My phone was charging, so I played on my Mom’s iPad.
She had incognito mode on, so al...