Melanin Monroe. ⋅

If you won't judge my du-rag, I won't judge your red flag.

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly.

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July 11, 2018

Heartbroken. in 2018!

I just don’t have words.

July 09, 2018

... in 2018!

My cousin passed this morning.

My baby brother. Oh, that boy. My first true love. Well, he’s not a baby anymore. He’s 21, will be 22 near the end of the month. He’s enlisting. Swearing in on Thursday. Got his assignments–Ft....

Well, so much has happened that I don’t remember if I actually wrote everything out, and things are going well for me so I don’t want to look at my past entries right now just in case I get trigg...

June 28, 2018

... in 2018!

Sometimes, I’m ok. But today, I would like to swallow all my pills. Not gonna do it, but I want to.

June 27, 2018

I need a break. in 2018!

I was using my dad’s car, because mine was repossessed. Now, I’m sitting in my program, about to go to lunch. His car isn’t there anymore. It’s been repossessed.

June 25, 2018

Hacked. in 2018!

Sorry for the previous entry! I wasn’t finished with it all the way. Turns out, my phone was hacked. I knew something seemed different. I googled the things that were happening, and confirmed th...

June 22, 2018

Speechless. in 2018!

I had major surgery in November 2016. My beloved Grandma passed the very next month. I was hospitalized last summer. My Nanny passed in October. That’s when I was sure that my Grandma’s death w...

June 20, 2018

Life... in 2018!

Life is hard. That’s why I just spend most of the month in 2 hospitals. My 5 year old cousin had (unexpected) brain surgery My car got repossessed, and I have no idea how I’ll e getting around I...

I no longer want to die.

June 11, 2018

Again. in 2018!

I’m bout to be extracted from my room and forced to go back to the hospital. Shit.

June 11, 2018

Fuck it. in 2018!

All I want, is what I fucking deserve. Someone to listen. To believe me. To tell me I didn’t deserve all the abuse I suffered. To tell me I deserve better. To tell me I’m worth it. And YOU wan...

I’m here. Alive. Somewhat stable after 5 nights in the hospital. Should have stayed longer. New medicine is expensive, over 1,000.

June 04, 2018

The last one. in 2018!

I’m on my way to the hospital. Doesn’t matter. I’m killing myself as soon as I’m released. Can no longer do this.

It might be time to go back to the hospital. I’m in total anguish over this. Lord, I need your help.

Last Friday, I was in the living room with my mom and the baby. Mom went to sleep, then baby followed suit. My phone was charging, so I played on my Mom’s iPad. She had incognito mode on, so al...

March 12, 2018

Betrayal. in 2018!

About 2 months go, my friend came to me, upset. Her group of friends, seemingly out-of-the-blue, stopped talking to her. She was hurt. I gave her the best advice I could, and told her I’d never...

March 10, 2018

I'm OK. in 2018!

Thanks to EVERYONE who texted to help me. I was having a very anxious couple of days. I’m OK now, the anxiety still lingers, but not as bad as a week ago. Love you all.

March 03, 2018

Thank you all. in 2018!

Phone gonna die. No electricity because of the wind storm. Be back later.

March 03, 2018

Text me plz. in 2018!

804-729-1360 I know most of you are at work, but I need anyone available to text me. I’ll explain it all during the text. I don’t care if I’ve never talked to you before. I just need someone badl...

February 28, 2018

Muscle relaxers, take me away. in 2018!

I’m in a manic phase. Honestly, though? Mania is fun. I have tons of energy and creativity. I feel GREAT. It’s not unlike some sort of uppers. However, the last time I slept, it was mid Sunda...

February 27, 2018

Mah burfday!!! in 2018!

Had a GREAT day, y’all. Thanks for all the birthday wishes!

February 26, 2018

My burfday is tomorrow. in 2018!

And I got the best gift ever today. 1) Playing with my nephews yesterday, and got the 3-month-old to smile so much to the point where he was almost laughing, and 2) Getting pulled over (I’m rid...

February 23, 2018

... in 2018!

I’m thisclose to having a nervous breakdown like the one that landed me in the hospital. Did I ever tell that story? It wasn’t pretty. There were cops involved and I got to wear handcuffs to the ...

February 23, 2018

I didn’t go. in 2018!

I know I need to, and I wil at some point. But I didn’t go in last night. Too much to explain and I’m on the bus to work right now, but basically my sister and her baby&baby daddy are kinda ...

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