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Nothing changed for me in a year in Everyday happenings
Last year I didn’t have the energy to write this year I don’t have the energy to speak, so I am writing tomorrow it my exam and I am not prepared. I only feel hurt and pain on behalf of my family...
I feel like a waste of space in Maze of my mind
For a more than 2 years I have been smothered under depression and anxiety and I couldn’t seem to figure out anything for myself. A huge part in my mental health was played by my family,they look...
What do I say? Excuses? in Maze of my mind
If someone comes up to ask me what happened you used to be such a great kid OMG you didn’t get in? what do I say? What do I say to them? That I sorry and I am ashamed of myself, that yeah maybe ...
How long am I going to be like this? in Maze of my mind
I feel exhausted and tired all the time, the only time I ever smile or laugh is when I am watching my phone, and if I put it down I once again start feeling the dread of anxiety creeping up on me...
I won't get another chance at this in Everyday happenings
This is one of those times when I sit down and think where did I go wrong? Where did everything go wrong? I try to remain optimistic and think positively it helps me in being productive but there...
Won't get another chance at this in Everyday happenings
This is one of those times when I sit down and think where did I go wrong? Where did everything go wrong? I try to remain optimistic and think positively it helps me in being productive but there...
I won't get another chance at this in Maze of my mind
This is one of those times when I sit down and think where did I go wrong? Where did everything go wrong? I try to remain optimistic and think positively it helps me in being productive but ther...
I won't get another chance at this in Maze of my mind
This is one of those times when I sit down and think where did I go wrong? Where did everything go wrong? I try to remain optimistic and think positively it helps me in being productive but there...
I won't get another chance at this in Maze of my mind
This is one of those times when I sit down and think where did I go wrong? Where did everything go wrong? I try to remain optimistic and think positively it helps me in being productive but there...
The Empty Swings(I) in Short Stories
“It’s going to be so weird, seeing everyone after so many years. My anxiety is at all time high.” I jokingly said to my mother, who was going through her weekly newsletter. “You should get ready ...
Old entry that was saved as draft in Everyday happenings
It’s 8:30 here, in the morning, and I intend to start off my day now. So I have science to study and later on take care of my garden, I am planning to plant some seeds but just like always in the...
Am I really numb to everything now? in Maze of my mind
I think I have really turned cold. numb and unbothered by my failures. How do I not even regret failing my entrance exam for medical college idk. It’s strange that from being a top student I just...
There are times when in Everyday happenings
There are certain times when I feel like exploding out and becoming bitter about everything, there are times when I get angry at myself for being like this, this tangled bundle of emotions and ne...
Why I write in Maze of my mind
strong textI am writing here after such a long time, maybe because I prefer writing using pen, but still I return to these pages. And I will always return to my pages, whether digital or old cri...
After a long time, I'm back here. in Everyday happenings
Well my last entry has been on July 25, 2020. So half a year later, I am here to again type down my conflicting thoughts and doubted opinions. I have a lot to tell, even though in 2020 nobody san...
I need to punch somebody real quick in Everyday happenings
Today I trying my best, I can say that yes, just some people keep pissing me off. They are not my parents but my younger sister is really prone to making scathing remarks but I love her all the ...
Anxiety and my experience. in Maze of my mind
So my legs are literally shaking, I was feeling much worse few seconds before but now with earplugs in and listening to Believer by Imagine dragons I feel better, although the lingering feeling i...
Topic: Music in New to know
New MV released!!! It’s been long enough, I am glad I finally got to hear their voices. EXO’s subunit called SC has released their new album first song!!( yes I am an exo-l, anyone else out ther...
What my family thinks of me in Maze of my mind
I am trying, I try to be better that is the thought I wake up with on good days, but there are bad days as well. For everybody like me, I get hit by anxiety and depression bouts. Sometimes I wan...
The sound of rain on my window in Everyday happenings
I was fortunate to wake up to the sound of rain on my window, the feeling was comforting as I snuggled further in my pillow and waited for some my sleep to come back. I finally got up half an hou...
First time stepping out of house since May in Everyday happenings
I went for a walk at night yesterday, after a very long time. It wasn’t something mystical but it felt exhilarating, especially because I live where there are lots of trees and walking space with...
Random musings put together in Maze of my mind
it’s been a tiring week nevertheless despite not stepping out of house, I can’t believe my entrance exam is so near but there is a possibility that it may get cancelled. Truth to be told a date h...
Why evening is my favorite part of day in Everyday happenings
I am a night owl, but still I like evenings more, well why? I agree that nights are magnificent and peaceful but evenings, they have their own magic. With the horizon splashed with colours dark a...
Trying to find a way out in Maze of my mind
So, here is the thing with me, I feel like I am in this unending cycle of mental and physical behavior, in a way it feels like as if my life is dictated to go on loop where I constantly try to do...
