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This began as a FetLife Journal backed up in ProseBox space. But I found myself leaving that site for personal safety reasons and I wanted a place to write things that... well, might be more racy or less polite than my other writings. MOST of these writings are Friends Only. SOME are public. The choice is intentional but seemingly arbitrary. Feel to look around a bit and drop a note saying "Hi!"

“You are something different – something some people find strange and fearful – but what you are is as natural as being male or female.”

― Tiffany Reisz, The Angel

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I honestly don’t spend much time anymore thinking about the psychological or emotional elements of sex anymore. I mean, in my marriage- there was no sex. In my situationship… I mean… it felt li...


This should maybe not be considered worthy of this space. But I am here to provide some separation if separation is desired. This is a space that more openly and more frequently discusses sexua...


I don’t exactly have a lot of opportunity for it anymore but I definitely felt the following this morning: “Funniest thing about “Switch” energy is sometimes I want to dominate someone and have t...


I do have more to add here of a more substantial nature. But I realized I hadn’t taken the Kink Quiz Check In for 2023 yet. Took it in 2021. Then in 2022 and charted the percent increase/decre...


This… is silly. I’ve only been with my current partner for two months. Granted, it feels like a lot longer. As our world comes to a slow and painful end around us, the months feel like years, ...


I find myself somewhat stuck as a “narrator.” Because I do believe it is important to the telling of this story to share specific information; but doing so also feels crude. So, forgive me my b...


I know I haven’t written here in… a long time. From when I first came here? Fuck, hell, life could not have been any more different. From “I want to explore Kink but my sexless marriage sucks ...


Considering what this space is reserved for, if you are reading this and object to open discussions regarding sex, sexuality, orgasms, or other things of equally adult nature… then continued read...


Consider this four entries at once. AND OBVIOUSLY AS WITH ALMOST EVERYTHING IN THIS PROFILE, NSFW AND SEXUAL CONTENT WARNINGS APPLY ENTRY ONE: I have made a new book for this space! One of the...


There was a hypothetical posed in an online forum. it said, “If you were given conclusive proof that you would never have a satisfying sexual life; and conclusive proof that you would never have ...


I am not as good at words as I would like to be sometime. But there are languages far more skilled at expressing things than English. Is there a word in existence that describes this feeling? I...


So, I have a more emotionally honest entry I was working on earlier in my other space. THAT entry, ironically, wasn’t saved to drafts and is just an open page on my work computer as I would take...


I shall assume the position to deflect and dodge derision and disdain for this. And while the wording is, perhaps, overdramatic, the sentiment is not. For I have discussed similar topics in my ...


I was raised on classic OLD films. I knew about WC Fields, Groucho Marx, Rita Hayworth, and Mae West as though I had grown up in that era. That was part of the benefit of being a perpetually ex...


So, I was sitting around letting my mind wander… when it wandered to a specific place. But how it got there, the reaction that occurred, and everything surrounding it? Well, this is definitely ...


I honestly never thought THIS space would have a DRAFTS backlog. In fact, the very idea of this space was to have a place where.... even if I was harshly judging myself- I could still express my...


I haven’t done a true cross post in a long time! I’m not sure if I will actually put this in my other space or not… especially as I have ideas for TWO cross posts and both of them may be of such...


This is something I would more likely have put on Tik Tok but… I’m not feeling Camera-Friendly today and I’m not sure I could say this in a cute quippy way so it is best shared in writing. My Tik...


I assume this happens to everybody. This has to be a universal human thing. I was in the kitchen, just working on some stuff, when I saw my Personal Ritual Date Book. Consider it a calendar for...


Wait… what?! You’re telling me that there is a Netflix show where you can win $100,000 by not having sex?! I mean… fairly sure I and a whole lot of people I know could win that pretty easily. F...


It’s funny. I had a thought during work. Stuck with me. Wanted to write about it. When I got home, that thought expanded into some emotions. Took two separate paths in my head. One that coul...


Y’know what upsets me most when I’m alone (as ever) and willing to examine things with both an emotional and honest eye? I so wish I felt worthy of the life I want. I don’t. And there are half ...


I came here to write something unimportant but still something that I wanted to say. And I’ll get to that. I’ll say it. But I re-read old entries from all of my journal spaces. A way to see ho...



I realize how petty and stupid and shitty this is.... but considering… everything? Considering my ex-wife tracked me down and said she wanted to be with me… only for our entire marriage to be an ...