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I walk while I write. I kept an online journal back in the days when AIM was a thing. I liked people telling me my insights were helpful to them, or that I helped them get through some pain in their life. I haven't had an online journal for years for various reasons. But, finally, I decided to give it another try because it will probably be therapeutic to me. And, who knows, maybe I can cure my chronic singleness with someone who likes what I have to say. *shrug* :)

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I find myself giving people advice I can’t follow myself. Well, obviously it’s easier to know how to do something than to actually do it. What matters to the other person is if the information is...


Boy do I ever have stuff on the brain. Let’s jot down some topics to hit: -Dating vs sugaring -Eating habits -Job (done) -Stress level (probably covered in one of the above) -Moving - I have my ...


About the author: Single white guy in his 30s who got a new 100% remote position and whose lease is about to be up. I have been looking at places to move because I live in New England and I hate ...


I have a flight tomorrow; er, later today. I should be asleep. But, I can’t sleep. When I was in college, the thing I hated most of all was flying home. I loved flying, I hated being at home. One...


I’ve come to the realization that I’m still unhappy. I have a job (soon). I will (soon) have income. I’m traveling to a new place (soon) but I’m still not happy. I did a lot of thinking and the r...


February 28, 2020

Written offer in Journal of life stuff

Ok, so, to close out an earlier post, I got my written job offer! Yay! So it did end up happening. The offer was also for 15k MORE per year than discussed. Wow! First time that’s ever happened! A...


There’s a youtube channel called Legal Eagle. The guy is apparently a really good lawyer and he breaks down various legal concepts or analyzes popular movies to say just how illegal they were. In...


I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep because my heart is, well, not exactly racing, but more like beating at the rate as though I were at a brisk walk. Why? Because I ate too much sugar and chocolate. A ...


I got a verbal job offer yesterday. I spent much of the day very excited and happy. I’ve mellowed a bit since then. I am writing this as much for me as for anyone who reads it. In my life, many t...


February 01, 2020

Where to go in Journal of life stuff

I can’t make up my mind, so…let’s write about it! I had a great interview today. It’s actually for a fully remote position, so for the first time in my life, I may just get a job where I can live...


My last post moved the needle forward on the internal discussion. So, two questions this time: What motivates me? What happened to me? 2017 was a nexus point in my life. I got laid off from a j...


January 26, 2020

Mental Churn in Journal of life stuff

I keep wanting to write a letter to an old friend. I want to tell her that I finally understand. It literally took 10 years, but I finally understand the depression she felt. I finally get it, an...


I never wanted to live in New England. The only reason I moved up here was because, in 2013, I was more terrified (and it was legit terror) of not having a job than of having a job in a place I h...


There was a thought provoking question on Reddit a few days ago: “If you could go back in time to Dec 21, 2011 keeping only your knowledge but giving up everything else, would you?” I considered ...


December 21, 2019

stress ramble in Journal of life stuff

I’ve been sitting wanting to eat because I’m stressed for the past hour. I tried looking through imgur posts to find peace. It kinda worked, and kinda didn’t. What made me decide to start writing...


December 19, 2019

Nuclear & peace in Journal of life stuff

It’s done. The development phase of my Factorio mod is finally done. That is to say, the part of making the mod where I actually define the in-game items, their properties, their orders in menus,...


Now that 2019 is close to being over, a lot of people are posting the “Bitcoin Minimums” to counteract the natural FUD cycle that comes and goes with cryptos. 2012 – $4 2013 – $65 2014 – $200 20...


I finally reached out to Trisha again. Trisha and I went on two dates about a year ago. She was the best person I’ve met up here in New England. I got peace and closure on why she and I broke up....


November 03, 2019

Kitchen AIDS in Journal of life stuff

One spot of writing today wasn’t enough. I need more. Kitchenaid mixers are the pain point. For those who don’t know, you get a plastic drive gear in the models that aren’t “pro” or “professional...


November 03, 2019

Ramblethinking in Journal of life stuff

Ok. I need to think, and in order to think, I need to write. Also, I’m cold, so walking while I type all this out will help me warm up. “Turn up the heat?” Part of why I keep it cold is so that I...


Where to start… Over the last week I hit a high point of 208.8lbs. To say that frustrated me would be an understatement. But over this weekend I went to Habitat, did some good work there, and fou...


October 04, 2019

Rambling in Journal of life stuff

Today on reddit I learned about a guy who developed “Mr. Spock” in his mind to help him look at his own life from abstract and logical point of view. He used it as a tool to get over being too ha...


October 02, 2019

Anxiety in Journal of life stuff

Anxiety. That is the best word to describe how I’ve been feeling for… a long time. Roe Jogan (Go Rojan? Hoe Jogan? Joe Rogan!), via Youtube’s black magic algorithm that only shows popular and non...


September 12, 2019

Living life. in Journal of life stuff

This is a reply I wrote to a friend, but it was entirely too long to send to her. So instead, I am posting it here, then paring it down to something more manageable for her. Thanks so much for ta...


August 23, 2019

to-do: title in Journal of life stuff

Ever feel the need to just write? Well, I don’t really have that so much as I have a combination of sickening boredom, lack of purpose, and free time. I lost my job last week. Specifically, I was...


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