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Down by the river
There is a river trail that I can get to by walking just ten minutes from my house. I rarely take it though. Maybe I will do it more often because it really is lovely. Today, since it rained yest...
Hooray for swipe
I can’t believe it took iPhone this long to implement swipe. That was the hardest thing to get used to not having when I switched from Android. I’m grateful to finally have it back although I kee...
Oh me oh my
I am in so many different ways right now. I have been writing a page each day for ten days now. But now I am in bed with little Felix, and he is sleeping… if I get up to get my notebook I am rath...
Well, we did it!
We made the baby and now he is here. He is just over a month old. His name is Felix. I know it is a trope but it is just true that my heart aches with love for him. I don’t know that he is an ...
Sneaking in at the last moment
Laying here in bed with my purring kitty in my arms. Can’t sleep. Experiencing a ton of somatic activation. Keep thinking about a client’s situation. Really wish I could lobotomize work out of my...
November 3
emphasized textIt’s 7:34 AM - the earliest I have been out of bed since I quit my job. I have been sleeping in until 8:30 or 9 every morning. Feels kind of yucky, but also kind of great. We li...
I am going to NoJoMo!
I don’t know if I will follow the prompts. I don’t know that I will write much each day. I do hope to write every day, though. I am starting a day late, which is classic, as I am typically two...
A letter that will never end that I will never send
Feels important to write all of this down right now while it’s present. Dad, My feelings toward you since I was eleven or twelve have been extraordinarily complicated. I’ve navigated what I th...
I wrote a whole entry
And the internet broke. And now it’s gone. And it was vulnerable and authentic and cannot be recreated.
Yurtlandia
I still read entries almost every day but wow I sure just never write in here. I’m working a “real person” job at a wilderness therapy company. I’m a therapist. I don’t have any clients at the...
Liminal Space
It’s morning, grey today, and I’m drinking really wonderful coffee with cream. I’m sitting in our living room. We did laundry yesterday so there are two rickety folding racks full of clothes ta...
What's this, an entry?
I believe it has been numerous years but I don’t even want to go back and check. The last entry that I remember writing took place during my interview for grad school at Naropa, and now I’m sitt...
Well well well
I broke up with Alex. It’s a little embarrassing to read my most recent entry now that it’s the future and things have become so very clear. Denial! Experienced so much denial in the past four...
Commitment
What a weird spot I’m in. I don’t really feel like continuing the story of my LSD trip. I think it’s interesting that, without mention of the acid, one probably couldn’t tell that I had been tr...
Onward, Psychonauts!
Spring Break in Utah. It was supposed to be myself and my love (Alex), my two best friends from my tiny cohort (Cody and Lindsey), and two other girls from my cohort whose company I enjoy. Day ...
A slice of the present and hopes for the future.
It’s overwhelming to write in here because I want to catch everyone up but that is impossible because it’s been years since I was a regular. And then I think about how few people will see it. A...
When you're like, "Wow, what if I hit the 'Write' button?"
I get these piercing shards of missing Japan sometimes. I have been missing onsen so much lately. I take a lot of baths at home, but the Japanese hot spring experience is a hard one to replicat...
It was winter
We went up into the mountains for an overnighter. Alex and I. Cody and Alyssa. They are not dating. They are from my cohort. I like being in the wilderness with them. Alyssa is always down to get...
Thursday
I still don’t like coming up with titles for things. I am really tired today - Last night I didn’t get home until 12:30 and then Alex and I stayed up until 1 trading stories about our evenings. L...
Oh, right! Write!
Holy shit! I have been reading the opendiary file I downloaded right before the crash. That shit starts when I was 17 and carries through until last yearish, but damn I was prolific in college! I...
Cooking for Buddhists
We're back in Texas, getting ready for another retreat. Everyone will arrive on Friday and then we get to start cooking 3 meals a day for 27 people plus a special, separate meal for the Lama. I l...
Vision
I got in! The interview ended Saturday and they called me Monday - what an awesome turn-around. Just one of the many perks of it being such a teeny tiny school. I am so excited and pleased and pr...
Stepping forward
Here's my first entry at Prosebox. I can't believe Opendiary is actually dead. It's upsetting. It's sad. It's the end of a chapter. I'm sitting at a tiny Buddhist university right now, in the l...
