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- Dec. 28, 2014, 8:19 a.m.
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I get these piercing shards of missing Japan sometimes. I have been missing onsen so much lately. I take a lot of baths at home, but the Japanese hot spring experience is a hard one to replicate. I’m visiting my parents right now. The hot tub is semi-functional. It is older than I am. A redwood barrel with four benches along the circumference and four jets that don’t work anymore. It sheds strips of redwood into the water and leaks like a sieve. We have to add half of its water to it every day. The water that has drained out is beginning to make a gigantic ice wall below our deck, surrounding the tub. But there it is, a hot tub on the deck with ponderosa views. It was snowing tonight, cold on my neck and shoulders. Collecting in my hair, melting, trickling.
I’ve been engaging in a lot of mindlessness. Smoking a lot of weed. Watching netflix. Redditing. But also in a lot of relationship. It’s pretty awesome to be home and feel the familial embrace. Sisters, nephews, niece, Mom. I’ve been spending a lot of time with them. Dad’s on the periphery. I help him with the computer sometimes. Fox news isn’t being played on Dish Network right now so he has it streaming on the computer constantly while he watches some Law and Order knockoff for five hours at a time. Sometimes, on top of the volume of the two TV programs that are running, there’s music on and the kids are dancing in the living room and we all stop talking and just lean into the chaos and it’s beautiful and fun and funny and love.
I was invited to cook for a retreat in Joshua Tree in March. Definitely going to do it even though it conflicts with school. Now that I know what school is all about I feel pretty OK about missing a week of it per semester, just one class session per course. God, I love school. I’m excited to start again. What is that about? It’s a relief to be loving it so much.
My niece and nephew are both three. I think that’s my favorite age for any human to be, ever. They are great conversationalists.
mellisonant ⋅ December 28, 2014
Lovely!