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Why Did Kids Stop Doing Drugs?
I am currently listening to 3 women on NPR talking about how the ‘male loneliness epidemic’ is ‘overblown,’ why men’s problems are men’s fault, and how they can solve them by becoming more like ...
The Shadow's Mating Trap
Who are we, exactly? Are we who we wish to be? Who we choose to be? Or are we who we don’t wish to be? Who we never chose to be? Jung talks about The Shadow Self. Feral, product of the Id. Eve...
Reality, or Fantasy?
There is a particular plot device in (good) horror scenarios in which the pleasant reality we think we know is actually a fiction disguising a horror, and the goal becomes escape. Movies like 20...
Kind Of Blue
Some mornings, whether or not there’s a reason for it, this long black claw emerges from depths forgotten to lampoon my heart and pull it down, down, down. Maybe there is obvious cause, but some...
I am a crooked man, and I've walked a crooked mile
The stars all winked at me They shouted: child!- Your funeral, my trial. The universe has a lot to answer for. I’m not sure its offerings of sublime beauty make up for the abject horror living ...
The Power Of Beauty
And why Art is more important than Science. There are many different types of Love songs. Love songs about new romance butterflies. Love songs about loss and grief. Love songs about separation ...
Handling Things
It’s interesting, the things we learn about ourselves and the world that we didn’t know we didn’t know. One of those things, for me, was just how easy it is to affect the physical world around u...
Priests and Educators
I can’t stand either of them. Yet I have been forced, mostly against my will, to deal with plenty of both over the course of my life. Something I don’t particularly wish upon anyone. I don’t ...
I Miss Men Like This
That’s my Uncle, one of many, sometime in the 90s. He passed during Covid. There was no funeral or ceremony because his oldest brother (pictured in the back, hugging his own daughter), who w...
Damn your eyes!
Ever take a bite of something and swiftly realize that you can either A) immediately spit it out or B) wage a white knuckled campaign of war against the Puke Gods with every horrific chew, not k...
Controlling ourselves, or controlling others?
Are control issues universal? Do people feel compelled to control others, or if not, themselves? I have as strong of a desire for self control as I do a loathing for the idea of being controll...
Eternally Underrated Movie Of The Spotless Mind
Or something like that. Giving it a re-watch after many a year, and I find myself obsessed. I think this happened the first time. There is just something exquisitely otherworldly about this mo...
Nostalgia lingers like grief, until it doesn't.
Been thinking a lot about my mother lately. For some reason I have a much harder time talking to and being around her now than I ever have in my life. Part of that is the new marriage, even thou...
Love & Reassurance
My high school girlfriend and I had a pretty funny meet-cute at this Christian “youth group” my buddy would invite me to every Tuesday (free pizza after). It was a whole new scene for me- new gr...
There's Horror, and then there's David Lynch
Good horror films usually target and accentuate certain primal fears, common to large demographics. Often multiple, layered into a tiramisu of finely honed terrors, set in its intention to raise...
Come Inside
Between Things
I am having a hard time dealing with a fundamental truth tonight. That first paradox we learned about in Logic class. The “you can never get to the door” paradox. I get it now. As it suppose...
Travel By Lotion
You know that cover of Somewhere Over The Rainbow by the Hawaiian guy that died quite some time ago? Movies overplayed it, but I still consider it a very special song, from a distant time and pl...
Edward O'Kelly Week
Jumped into a fresh job site this week, new home construction, first whole-house I’ve had a chance to do since late last summer. Now that the three month solo grind of carrying hoses up and down...
Lullaby For Sleeping
Winter Evening Stroll
Sinking Season
Someone once said that “time is a flat circle.” That it’s essentially an illusion created by our subconsciousness to explain a part of our hardware that we can’t observe- like the built in egg t...
Godzilla Minus Fucking One
I have been quietly obsessed with this movie for a year, I think, based on loose recommendations I read- but I avoided it, and spoilers, until I was able to watch it in the original Japanese a...
I Remember You Well In The Chippewa Hotel
I was listening to Chelsea Hotel while I was working on this little trip back to the 1960s: That square turd of a brutalist brown brick shitbox has been there my entire life. I had no idea th...
Darkness
Drove to work this morning completely in the pre-dawn dark, though dark blue was creeping over the black by the time I rolled past the church into town. I was feeling a bit uneasy with it. Somet...
