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a continuation
This is so confusing and I’m not sure what I want anymore, but I promised him that I would try harder. I’m just totally emotionally shot.
what to do.*
My marriage has been… not-so-good. His treatment of me has been something that I’m not really willing to tolerate. I’m walking on eggshells around him. I say or do the wrong thing constantly. He ...
12/20
– I saw Star Wars yesterday. I won’t say anything else yet, unless asked about it in a private note. :) – I got my top wisdom teeth out. It was way easier than I expected and I had no pain at all...
12/17
So, I have about a month off of school. Finals went okay. I’m excited for next semester already! I am spending this afternoon researching songs by George Strait and Conway Twitty and in hopes tha...
december
December’s always a weird month for me. It shouldn’t be, right? I really would like some wine.
just some gilmore girls musing
I’m watching Gilmore Girls, and I’m on the last season. Lane is very pregnant with twins, and her husband and her mom are constantly buzzing about her, being overly concerned with her pregnancy, ...
black cloud
I always think of him around this time. A week from today, it will have been four years since he took his own life. And my heart still aches from guilt and sadness. Even if there wasn’t anything ...
my new man
The angle of the photo is weird, he looks shorter than he actually is:
12/6
I felt a bit like myself this weekend! I stayed up playing Fallout 4 on Friday. I completely forgot how good video games can be. I also played Fat Princess. I hadn’t played that in a few years. I...
why
Cannon: “Chocolate, please.” (Half chocolate Ensure, half milk. He’s obsessed with anything chocolate). Me: “You already had some today. Let’s drink water. hands him his cup” Cannon: “Why?” Me: “...
12/3
I got my husband the Exploding Cats card game for Christmas. I’m upstairs and all I hear is “meow. meow. meow.” Our babysitter brought her dog today when she picked up her check, and Cannon flipp...
I'll be seein' you
I like country music. Especially country music with female vocals. Most people say they dislike country music, and I can see why. It’s pretty sexist, with rigid gender roles and objectification ...
just that old familiar thing
I’ve been off school for over a week for Thanksgiving break and I’m ready to go back. I’m SO. BORED. All I do is clean, and read books to the kids, and change diapers, etc. I don’t know what else...
60s romance comics / adult coloring book things
You know how sometimes I have weird hobbies? I spent my morning yesterday on these: http://www.misterkitty.org/extras/stupidcovers/stupidcomics339.html http://www.misterkitty.org/extras/stupidc...
Well, damn.
I brought up the non-monogamy thing with Husband. Maybe that wasn’t a great idea. He thinks that I want to cheat on him now. facepalm I can tell he’s upset. I guess I just can’t explain it clearl...
11/19
My list of celebrity crushes is growing, which is not in the norm for me (Nick Cave, Elvis Costello [kind of weird], and Henry Rollins]. I went through a sexless phase for a few years in which I...
"political correctness"
Some people say that we don’t need social movements in this day and age; we don’t need feminism, we don’t need more civil rights movements. But that’s the furthest from the truth. People said th...
In which I [mostly] write about my children:
My daughter can name different fruits. She knows the differences between apples, oranges, and bananas. When did she get so big? She’s so darling, she really is. She always puts her face near mine...
oh to be the cream
I had a lot of things that I wanted to say, but it’s been raining and I lost the words. I’m only feeling slightly in control of things. I re-read the fifth volume of the Sandman yesterday, A Gam...
"Pretty" years
This is going to sound strange and really stupid and vain, but have you had years in your life that you felt you were at your “peak”? So far in my 20s mine have been 21 and 23. I feel like 26 is ...
11/14
I was browsing job openings and one came open today at a middle school, needing a library para. I want to apply, but the pay isn’t very good and it’s almost a full-time position.... that wouldn’t...
hobbies
I have really strange hobbies. I have been researching fundamentalist Christian cults, and Lizard People conspiracy theories lately. I wish I had more productive hobbies, but I really just don’t.
night
I feel lonely often lately, although I shouldn’t. It comes and goes. I wanted to have productive conversations tonight, but all I’ve had tonight is silence. I suppose life’s mostly been this way ...
there is a light and it never goes out
thesmiths (lol, why won’t my hashtag show up). Ugh, why did I hashtag that. GUESS WHAT. I only need 16 more hours to graduate. Eight of those hours have to be science. Meh. I’d rather it was his...
School stuff.
I went to an advisor today to figure out which major I should switch to from education. It’s still up in the air. He helped me figure out that I am much closer to graduating with a Liberal Arts d...
