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Because I'm Forgetting You

by WNpilot101

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Hey. I’m drinking again. It’s been a depressing few days for me. Right now, while sipping on this beer, I remember a time when we would get stupid drunk. And when I say stupid, I mean STUPID. Rem...


January 13, 2020

United Skates of America

Hey....I’ve been so depressed its not even funny. Drinking myself to sleep everyday. I find it hard to be sober without you here. I feel like an idiot for keeping these journals, cuz you don’t fe...


Hey. How have you been? I talked about you a lot today. My buddy from work is like a therapist. He lets me talk about you so I can just let it out. I just miss you so bad. I get so upset when I t...


Hey. I have something to tell you…My Nana passed away yesterday. The doctors said her kidneys were failing and had 3 to 6 months to live. Here we are only two weeks later…and she’s gone. I wish y...


January 05, 2020

Bath Bomb Fail

Hey. Remember that one time we went out and bought bath bombs because we had seen some videos of bath bombs being dropped into water and they sold the champagne scented one’s at Walgreen’s? I wan...


Hey. Do you remember how I used to wake you up in the morning? After a long over night shift, I couldn’t wait to come home to hold you. Even if we argued like crazy the night before. I was a nast...


January 02, 2020

RIP to Pepé Le Pew

Hey. When I was out near our old apartment yesterday, I was reminded of a special memory. Remember one night when I was at work, you texted me frantic? You had just ran over a skunk. I could just...


January 02, 2020

Our Old Neighborhood

Hey. Happy New Year! I just went out to put gas in my truck. It’s so cold out that I decided to go for a little drive to let the heat run for a bit. I found myself at the gas station up the stree...


January 01, 2020

This One is Simple

Hey. This entry is simply just saying Happy New Year. No special memory. No special words. Just Happy New Year. This time last year, I said “2019 is going to be my year”. It was not my year at al...


Hey. The craziest thing just happened to me. I completely lost it. I finally snapped. I was going to the casino earlier with a friend. My truck got there okay, but when I was heading home, my tru...


December 28, 2019

Rocky's Sunset Wall

Hey. Do you still go to Rocky Point? I did. But not anymore. When my truck broke down, I couldn’t go. But since I’ve got my truck back, I haven’t made my way down there. Remember why it was ‘our ...


December 28, 2019

When I Close My Eyes

Hey. I really miss you today. For some reason…lately…when I close my eyes…I can see you. As if you never left. It’s like something out of a movie. What do I see? I see your beautiful eyes. The su...


Hey. Merry Christmas. I can remember last year when you had left around this time. You came back to open presents with me. I don’t think I ever properly thanked you for that. Looking back, it mea...


December 24, 2019

I Should've Stared Longer

Hey. Can I tell you something without it being weird?.......I Love you…still. A whole lot. I know its wrong. But I can’t control it. You were my best friend babe. I still can’t believe I haven’t ...


Hey. I’ve been punished. Because I hurt you (emotionally). I’ve been asking myself since you left, “Why me”? “Why do I have to love you as much as I do after all of this time”? After taking the t...


Hey. Remember a couple weeks before we stopped talking and you came to my spot to pick up the rest of your clothes? I tried so hard to keep calm. Every time I saw you, I could see that there was ...


December 16, 2019

Am I Really That Bad...?

Hey. What a weekend! My life has been on such a downhill slope since my truck died three and a half months ago. So far, I’ve spent over $5,000 on this thing. But it’s literally all I have left fr...


December 13, 2019

Charcoal Face Mask

Hey. Remember last summer, when we went to the beach, we found that Rascal Flatts song I fell in love with? “Love what you’ve done with the place”? It still makes me think of you. I listened to i...


December 11, 2019

When We Met...

Hey. What’s up? I hope you’re doing okay. I couldn’t stop thinking about you the other day. I took the day off of work to work on my truck. Remember when we first met? I had only seen you as a su...


December 04, 2019

Planet Earth

Hey. Today really sucked…this douche at work…who is holier than thou…is becoming number one on my shit list lately. They told us this week-long audit we’ve been having isn’t going well at all. Th...


November 29, 2019

It's Been a Year

Well…here it is. One year. I feel like it was just yesterday…yet, at the same time, it feels like it’s been a long and endless journey. I have so much to tell you. A lot has happened since you le...


November 26, 2019

Peanut Butter Brownies

Do you remember when we were going through Stop and Shop and saw a box of peanut butter and chocolate swirl brownie mix? You were so damn excited…as if this was the newest technology that man had...


November 25, 2019

Why I'm Writing This

Why? Honestly…because I can’t talk to you anymore. As much as that kills me, I have learned to live with that. I’ll probably never get the chance to talk to you again, so this is my way of talkin...


Book Description

I’ve made mistakes. As a result…I have to live without you now. I wasn’t ready to let go, and I truly feel I never got the closure I needed for me to live a ‘normal’ life. I can’t talk to you. That, more than anything, would give me what I need to move on. Because that is not an option…this is how I can talk to you. I’m forgetting you. Which can only mean, you have completely forgotten me by now. When I remember you, I’ll tell you about it here. So we never forget.