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I don’t like to fight I say when I’m punched in the side I didn’t mean to cry I say when they cover my eyes I’ll say what you want if you leave me alone I’ll stop eating until I am just bones And...

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I wish I could cry and my tears would take me with them. I want to melt into the floor, the walls, and just not exist. I want the pain to escape and never come back, even if I have to go with i...

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I’m so heavy. I don’t know what is holding me down, but something weighs on my bones, my back, my shoulders, on my very soul. To move is to use all the energy I have. To think is to drain me of e...

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I am so angry. Im not sure why, but I am furious. I will be walking down the hall and just want to smash my hand against the walls, until I can’t move it, until there’s more blood than flesh. I w...

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you’d think it’s not a hard lesson, one you should learn early on. But I guess I didn’t. I need to learn to be alone. to not rely on others, because that hurts more. I know I shouldn’t expect thi...

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Leaves freeze in the winter cold as hands freeze against a trembling arm Shaking trees and hands when the dark sets in Ice falling to the ground to cover a buried heart Sealing away the warmth of...

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Hands reaching out but heads turned away Wanting to save but not to acknowledge the work it may take Wanting to help but not to take the baggage of a heart burdened by its own hate Reaching for h...

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Is there such a paradox as a calm rush of fear the aching feeling of despair and an outward smile the pain in emotions and the numbness in mind the loneliness and the need to be alone the simulta...

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In a limbo between bubbly and reclusive Stuck Where the world weeks dark but the sun shines on my face Stuck between broken and ok Every smile seems fake but so does every tear What is real Wh...

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tears stifled by hurried sniffs avoidance of the inevitable “are you ok” because i cannot say yes anymore i cannot lie but i cannot tell the truth hidden under cotton sheets under carefully place...

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Falling down down down Drowning in a pool of my own hidden tears Hiding to not worry my friends to keep the dark inside Breaking my heart piece by piece into oblivion Calling silently solitary ...

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What is beautiful? Is it blonde hair blue eyes Is it the vibrant attitude Is it the perfectly done hair and nails Is it talent Is it loving yourself I dont want beautiful I dont care what color m...

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My life is not your usual love story I’m sure that did not get your attention, everyone thinks they’re special My ideal love story has the handsome prince The romance The love The man who cares ...

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Is it so wrong to want to be loved To have what all those in the movies and books seem to find Is it so bad to crave love To crave acceptance and to want to be wanted Why is love such a distant d...

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I feel really sad today I dont know why I had fun I met a new person I did good inclass But I feel sad today I thought about it again How much better it would be How much easier I thought about h...

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I havent prayed in a while I think maybe I should Maybe I cant help myself anymore I dont think I can help myself anymore Maybe I need someone to watch out for me To love me no matter what I dont...

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Its dark and Im scared again Not of physical monsters But of the ones in my head The ones who rage the ones I thought maybe just maybe I made up for attention But I was wrong and they are real an...

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I literally dont know what to do Why am I so happy that someone said they’re proud of me Why does it make me so happy and why asn’t it happened before Why can someone Ive known for four months ma...

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I want to love and to be loved so desperately that every fiber of my being aches with the need to be known so completely by another soul My very soul is distraught with the thought of another nev...

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