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Butterflies Fly Away
Virginia brought up Jonah yesterday. She took the long way but asked me if I had a crush on him. I confirmed it. When she introduced us in December, she said she felt the energy between us. She ...
Push
I talked it out with my coordinator about him shrinking the program. If he wanted, he could be an authoritative, totalitarian, dictator. Nobody would stop him. Instead, he creates space for me. ...
I Spy With My Little Eye
I don’t want to learn the culture of my people. I want to learn God through the culture of my people. I Spy With My Little Eye: Uncivil Rights I felt like I was in the twilight zone at the Harm...
Health Shamer
On Saturday, I wanted to do everything but forced myself to do nothing. Today, I want to do nothing but have to force myself to do everything. I hit a breaking point with my diet yesterday. Dis...
No Pain No Gain
You will never win the war. You can only win the battle day by day. I understand myself better knowing that ADHD was my problem this whole time. My brain is manipulative. I am conditioning myse...
Round Dance
I was so proud of my boys. It didn’t look like it was going to happen but we came through at the last second and showcased our song at the Round Dance. It was an amazing turnout. This was our ...
Programming
I had a dream that my elder had a dream that I did Sundance. This is a nightmare. If any of the elders in my life have a dream that I did our most sacred ceremony, then it is non-negotiable. I h...
He/Him NRG
A little suffering is good for the soul. It builds resilience. This is the thought I have before I push myself out of my comfort zone. At the Harm Reduction conference yesterday, I grabbed the m...
Conundrum
My coordinator has a lot of animosity about the participants in our program. He has a lot of animosity toward them as well. I don’t like it. He’s making it feel like we are at war with our parti...
Philanthropy Blues
We are trying to do philanthropy but they have us doing big business. We haven’t been serving our kids because we have been serving numbers and that is the frustration we have been feeling. We d...
Red Rebel
We recruited our first speaker for our first Our Eldest Brother event. Sean Rayland-Boubar. We want positive male role models to come speak to our youth. We have the drug, gang, and sex traffick...
Response-Able
I explained to my coordinator, my friend, that I felt disturbed about seeing him so broken yesterday, and I didn’t understand why until I got home. I think I learned something about you that yo...
Surface Pressure
My coordinator buckled under the pressure. He disclosed to me that he had a nervous breakdown the day prior. He’s only human. He needs to put himself first and is considering taking a leave of a...
January Was a Long Year
A little suffering is good for the soul. It builds resilience. [Existential Content Advisory] My walls of Jericho have come down. There was no Trojan horse. Lord knows I didn’t let anyone in. ...
Existential Exostential
Welcome to the winter of my discontent. I call my roommate a 40-year-old teenager. Meanwhile, I am struggling to regulate my emotions. On the surface, I’m peachy keen. I’m just a chill guy. Un...
Steam
I didn’t explain why the community walk felt like I was walking through somewhere wartorn. We walked along the river, tent city. It was full of debris. The neighborhoods were boarded up. Buildin...
Battlefield
I am questioning my choices. A little bit of suffering is good for building resilience. So they say. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and did my first volunteer shift at a shelter. I donat...
Spacetime
I am not one of those vile and profane gremlins that needs to be coddled when upset. I’m an adult. I need to be alone to process things. I’m inflexible on this matter. I don’t want to need peopl...
Bittersweet Surrender
All my defenses are down. I was sick for almost a whole month. I was barely able to keep it together. Now that my body is done healing and I am on the other side of it, all my defenses are dow...
Defying Calamity
I love that New Year New Me energy. Most people in my age group have given up and think the hype is stupid. It’s still my favorite time of year. It’s when a lot of people stop feeling fine and I...
Monidoo Mukwa
You need to own your story so that you can change it. What is your story? I’m just having a scheduled existential crisis. I wish I had a shaman to interpret the will of creator. I am asking fo...
Lateral Kindness?
Good luck with your bread. Said Andy while he was eating the toppings off his pizza. Avoiding the crust because he’s on a keto diet. Look at us! I said. Two grown ass men afraid of toast!. Bev...
The Vibe Is Still Nor
I got my sister to look for an apartment or house to rent. She loves doing that. I am tired of living with this 40-year-old teenager. She can suffer from her dumb cow’s disease on her own. I ha...
The Vibes Are Nor
Yesterday had all of the ingredients for a good day cake. It fell flat. It was bitter. I woke up way too early for my own good because I was too excited about finally being able to go to the g...
Cannon Event
How do three men in their thirties not have $800 between them? I read in a meme. This was a cannon event. This was several years ago but I couldn’t take the shame so it inspired me to start acti...
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