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Bigger
Jayson and I made plans to go out on a date last night. It’s not something we do all that often just because of his work schedule and the difficulties of finding someone to watch three kids. It...
Blurred
I hate it when I go this long without updating because then I feel like I have so much to say, but I have a short attention span for writing and I never get it all out. After months of not talk...
The updates
A handful of brief updates because I don’t feel like writing about any of this stuff in depth at this point: Jayson and I are still together. I was expecting him to move out when I got home fr...
Crumbling
I leave tomorrow with Rachel to drive cross country with her. I am excited about the trip itself because I know we will have a good time together. But I’m also sad about it. I’m sad because I ...
Therapy
Jayson and I started seeing a therapist together about our relationship. Since I’m seeing my own therapist twice a week, it now means that I am in therapy three days a week. It’s a lot, but if ...
Good step
Rachel starts her new job on August 31, so we’re less than a month away. We’re going to drive out there together the week before, and I’m looking forward to that trip with her even though it’s a...
Alone
I went to Santa Barbara last weekend with Rachel. I wanted to go on the trip with her, especially since she was paying my way, but I was also worried that this wasn’t the best time to be away fr...
Progress
So many people today asked me why I as released from Young Women. I wanted to cry each time. Instead I just said that I was working on some things with the Bishop. I think people that have been...
Low
This is a tough one to write. I’m in an unhappy place right now. I’ll start at the beginning. Megan came to town on Thursday to spend the holiday weekend with us. We haven’t seen her in a whil...
Pride
Last week was gay pride in Boston, and Rachel asked me to go with her. Guy wasn’t going to go because it was Saturday morning after he had worked all Sunday night. I told her I really didn’t wa...
Accessories
This morning Rachel suggested heading back out for another quick shopping trip to get some accessories for her graduation outfit. She had already spent so much on the dress and the body suit to ...
Different world
Since we didn’t really have anything planned for the holiday weekend, Rachel suggested we have a shopping day together today. She and guy are taking a vacation to San Francisco next month so she...
So many moms
With three children of my own, I feel like Mother’s Day ought to be all about me. But it never works out that way. Too many other mothers in my life. And since my children are so small, usuall...
Right now
Not much excitement going on in my life right now. Most of my time is spent between doing things with the kids and doing things with the church. That’s not at all a complaint, in fact I’m very h...
Church girls and naughty underwear
So I have my own washer and dryer at home but sometimes for bigger things I go to the laundromat. Things like blankets and comforters. And with three small children I’m often washing the blanke...
Honesty
This is my first year celebrating Easter with some sort of religious background. In previous years it was just a reason to have a ham for dinner. I enjoy telling my kids about the Easter story ...
Good and Bad
I spent most of the day at a YW event at church and had a good time. Many of the girls are pretty close to my age and I feel like I’m developing friendships with them, more than I am an authorit...
Maine
Rachel and I and the kids took a trip up to Freeport yesterday, mostly to shop at LL Bean, but really just to get out of Boston for a day. Not that heading to Maine really rescued us from the sn...
Grey
I’ve been fighting a lot with Rachel lately and it makes me a little sad because she’s really the most important person in my life after my husband and kids. She and Guy are planning on moving o...
Feminine
It’s been more than a year now since I’ve shaved. Anywhere. When I originally stopped shaving last winter, it was because I was getting along with my pregnancy and just no longer could be bothe...
Borrowed pads
I just read an entry on the front page where a woman talks about starting her period today, and figured I could write on the same subject. It’s a little funny that all girls will eventually writ...
Pajamas
Rachel texted me yesterday morning and said she was done with her lifeguarding (she lifeguards at a public indoor pool on weekends, for those people that are thinking it’s weird that she is lifeg...
Happy
I went for a long stroller walk yesterday with someone I met at church who is becoming a good friend of mine. It feels good to have friends, I feel like I haven’t actually had any since I finish...
Job change
So the big news is that starting Monday, Jayson will be working for Guy. Guy has been doing really well at his company and in the fall was promoted to the overall manager of the third shift. He...
Incontinence update
I haven’t written about this in a while and wanted to share my progress. For someone who was told that I would never again have any bladder control, I’m pretty excited about the changes that hav...
