Twitter-Sized in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
- Jan. 21, 2020, 3:21 p.m.
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I hope it doesn’t sound too terrible to say that I’m feeling nervous. Talking about the separation? Lots of nerves. Discussing it with the family? Lots of tears. The last three months, though, have been fairly peaceful. SHIT we even had sex five times in the last three months!!! That is more times in three months than we had in 5 years. But sex and even just… politely living together… that’s still a roommate situation. A marriage involves communication, love, respect, trust, intimacy, connection. Martha is still a woman who would be entirely content to spend every day watching television and YouTube as I sat in the couch in silence. That (it seems) would be her ideal relationship. That’s… not what I want a marriage to mean. “Someone to watch TV with” seems like a damned low bar when deciding on what “marriage” should mean.
So… again… I don’t doubt the actions I’m taking. But I am still quite nervous. And as much as I don’t doubt the actions I’m taking… I confess that I do doubt their ultimate end. Venturing out to find something more meaningful?? I can’t even find people who don’t fall into one of the three Idiocy Camps (Anti-Vax, Flat Earther, Trump Supporter). If I can’t find an abundance of people who care about intelligence and genuine enlightenment… let’s just say I’m not holding my breath.
DimMeOut ⋅ January 21, 2020
Found you via the front page.... I've been there, and no, it's not a fun situation. Marriage requires more than just peacefully coexisting in the same house. Praying for you. ♥
Park Row Fallout DimMeOut ⋅ January 22, 2020
Thank you!
DE_KentuckyGirl ⋅ January 21, 2020
If I can’t find an abundance of people who care about intelligence and genuine enlightenment… let’s just say I’m not holding my breath.
If this translates into believes only like I do then....yeah, might be a tough road to hoe.
Park Row Fallout DE_KentuckyGirl ⋅ January 22, 2020
Luckily, it doesn't mean that. I've got loads of friends that disagree with me on everything from religion to politics to favorite X-Man :) But the idea that we cannot share a common reality is... frustrating. I wish this were an exaggeration but I honestly know people who would deny the very existence of gravity if CNN or Nancy Pelosi said it existed.
DE_KentuckyGirl Park Row Fallout ⋅ January 22, 2020 (edited January 22, 2020)
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Hahaha......yeah I get what you're saying! I know people who are the same, but also have a huge number of close friends and family who share polar opposite political views, and religious views. I find differences in intelligent, yet respectful, people can make for great discussiom, and broadening my own view!
woman in the moon ⋅ January 21, 2020
I was married a long time to someone who I could not stand to watch tv with/vice versa... he could not stand to watch tv with me either. Do you two actually enjoy the same stuff on tv?
Park Row Fallout woman in the moon ⋅ January 22, 2020
Sometimes. I'd say anywhere between 30% to 50% we enjoy the same stuff. But then Martha could (has and does) watch 5 to 6 hours (straight) of "Botched" or "Say Yes to the Dress" or "Mystery Diagnosis" or something like that and... yeah. I'm definitely not a fan and kind of despise the idea of sitting through any of that.
Always Laughing ⋅ January 21, 2020
Being nervous is normal you are about to enter into a life where there are a lot of unknowns and that should make anyone nervous.
Park Row Fallout Always Laughing ⋅ January 22, 2020
Thanks!
ODSago ⋅ January 22, 2020
Being nervous is so human when you have lingered too long at the parade. You can welcome it and call it excitement for what is to come, a better life.