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- Jan. 8, 2020, 12:39 p.m.
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I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. So far anyway. It was clear that I am coming down with something shortly after I wrote my last entry. I’m not going crazy. Although, I just got over a cold so this is unusual for me. I’m never sick. I burned myself out before I realized that I was getting the flu. I worked out my back, triceps & rear delts. Sick or not today is legs, glutes and abs… maybe Kegels too lol.
I had a mini panic attack yesterday evening. I’m letting myself down. I am not doing my best. I could be trying harder. I’m avoiding everything like the plague. I didn’t even look at my phone once yesterday. I haven’t even done so yet today. I’m feeling guilty about it. That I am not trying hard enough to get my shit together. For somebody who wants to join the 5am club, I sure blew it in the last two days. I woke up at 5 in the morning without my alarm but I listened to my body and went back to bed instead of getting up. My head still feels woozy a bit but I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. I have a sore throat this time around but I can deal. I want to come back to the world and to try and reconnect with all of my friends. I want to put myself out there and be fearless. I think I am ready to live out loud again.
The vivid dreams from my meds have started. They’re all relevant to my situation so far. Last night I was talking about my resume with Richard, an old manager that I used to work for. I think that I need to dumb my resume down. It screams management and I’m not even applying for management positions. I dunno. Maybe I will tackle that today. I need to get some groceries and start some meal prepping today. Then I need to throw my resume around online. I’ll feel a whole lot better after doing that. Yeah, I’ll just get to it.
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Then the universe throws this at me right after I wrote this lol
Last updated January 08, 2020
Swanny ⋅ January 13, 2020
What meal prep are you doing?
TL Swanny ⋅ January 17, 2020
Mostly just breakfast focused these days. Oat milk, overnight oats (mocha flavoured) OR chocolate chia pudding, raspberry chia seed jam for toast or rice crackers, energy bites (pumpkin spice flavoured), frozen coconut yogurt bars (blueberry and lemon). When I'm employed, for lunch, I would bring a bit of whatever is leftover from my supper the night before and a salad that I put in a jar. Usually Mexican inspired with black beans corn. Suppers may or may not be a big production. If I make something south asian I go to town on that shit. I just got some dried rose petals, I have some turkey recipes that I want to try. Some Morocco recipes as well.
Swanny TL ⋅ January 19, 2020
That sounds amazing!!