Life after you. in Bittersweet

  • Nov. 2, 2019, 1:58 p.m.
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I think the hard thing about loosing the friend you talk to the most, is lack of someone to talk about daily bullshit with. There is no more chatting about kids, or dinner, or crafts or whatever.
I literally pop open chat boxes on facebook to send messages to people and i dont know who to message. She was the only one i chatted with day in and day out. I mean there is my husband of course. I talk with my momw hen she gets home from work, My sister when i see her. But i miss having someone to chat with.
I guess ill learn to chat with myself.. Or just nothing lol. Ill adjust. I just enjoyed talking with someone every few hours. And now its gone. But i feel good about now having to constantly try to talk someone off the ledge either. On the downside i dont have someone to talk to when i start feeling crappy. Which hasnt happened much but i have no doubt it will.
Anyway, im not sure what else i want to say here. I feel like i need to talk to something, but im not entirely sure what!

school work is going well. Im enjoying sharing the tidbits that my kids write for their story questions. The two olders are still behind. But they are working on it. B is a bit farther behind on German then he should be. Im struggling to get him interested in his extracurriculars. But this will be the last year of this kind of homeschooling i think. I think im going to look into other programs that are different. I do like that all 4 of them are on the computer. But it is still a rigid program with due dates that they get behind on. Little Miss’s program is so much easier. She just works through her work books at her own pace. I do some some days, 10 some days and none other days.

Today feels really good. Its bright and sunny, its warm enough to melt the snow we have had. The kids are getting along good. Papa is home for the weekend. Everything is… going fine. Strangely fine.
Oh and yes, all 5 of my remaining rabbits are still here. Husbands cousin may be sending down one of my boys to replace one i lost. So i may be getting my grinchy back.


Jinn November 02, 2019

Things are going more smoothly and that is great . I know it’s hard to lose a close friend. :-( but one you had to talk of the ledge constantly is just another stressor .

ChainedChrysalis Jinn ⋅ November 02, 2019

I know, However many times i felt like she was the only one who understood too.

Jinn ChainedChrysalis ⋅ November 03, 2019

:-( I am sorry ...

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