harmony in formless

I am splitting
the fractures inside trying to make themselves external

I keep hoping that if I hold myself quiet and together for long enough
the fractures will heal
and things will go back to normal

was I asleep before?
Barely struggling to survive
and now I am awake
and aware of how deep it runs

it’s a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach
nothing feels the same

and no one knows