Crapola in Hello
- Sept. 12, 2019, 2 a.m.
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1:52 AM and after two Aleve PM’s I’m no longer tired. Wide awake. Bah!
Work was slow the first few hours but made up for it the last hour. I swear, hats off to all the kids that bust their asses working there. Couldn’t ask for a better group. I’m kinda crushing on one girl who is 29 but she’s got a bf that works with us. He’s 21 and I jokingly told her she’s robbing the cradle. They’re both good folks, though.
But no. I think I’m done with relationships and will make my way through life alone. I’m not sad or anything by that. I just don’t really do well in relationships. Part paranoia, part mental illness, all social awkwardness. I’m a hard person to put up with sometimes. I really don’t mean to be but it happens.
Suddenly I want a doughnut. I wonder if we got anything chocolate or sweet…hmm. Time to find out.
DimMeOut ⋅ September 12, 2019
I find myself suddenly wanting donuts a lot... That's probably why I'm so heavy. LOL
I sometimes think I'm better off alone, too. But I do believe that everyone deserves to love and be loved, no matter how difficult we may be sometimes. So I still carry a tiny glimmer of hope that one day I'll find someone who won't think I'm too difficult to love. But I'm not holding my breath, either...