Before Sleep in These Foolish Things

Worked very, very hard today. If this had been a month ago I wouldn’t have been able to handle it. Things appear to be going back to “pre-dissection” or close to it…though I want to make sure that I don’t fall back into old patterns.

If anything, it’s time to start thinking about making major moves. The Dream Job I spoke of a few entries ago may be no longer, but that doesn’t mean I have to stop thinking about what I want to do with the rest of my life.

In fact, it’s actually time to start thinking of how I want to retire.

Speaking of which, tomorrow is Easy E’s last day. The more I think about it the less sad I actually am. Everybody is acting like it’s the end of the world and that nobody can do what Easy was doing, but guess what? An engineer has been hired to take her place and he’s actually BETTER than Easy E is. I’m glad she’s going. I know that makes me sound like an asshole, but I swear, the second she no longer reported to me was the second SHE became an asshole to me. Things are looking up with her leaving.

Don’t get me wrong, I do wish her well in her retirement. In fact, I chipped in for the big gift her indirect team is giving her. In fact, I’m going to her Last Lunch tomorrow. In fact, I might even hug her…but the moment she’s gone I will breathe a small sigh of relief.

I also think other things are brewing under the surface. Boss has been snooping around. I could see that he looked at my LinkedIn page over the weekend and I do believe he’s been watching me closely. I also know that he’s not getting along with Brown Nosey, who also reports to him. Thing is, I think he may be trying to get rid of the folks who know that he has/had been working on a side hustle. CEO never did talk with me about it like I was told she would, so I’m a bit concerned with my position and if it’s moved out of the safety zone (though it never was - I still don’t have resolution to my PIP - god, what a nightmare).

ANYWAY. All the above to say it was NOT an easy day today.

Had a couple of back-and-forth texts with Doc D today, but if I were a betting woman I’d say he now has a girlfriend and he’s keeping that tidbit from me. Maybe he’s gotten back together with the old GF or maybe he’s decided to take “one of the girls he’s been dating” to a higher level, but I get the distinct vibe that he’s taken,

He still flirts…just not at the level when we knew we were going to be boning later in the evening (which only really happened once, but it was WORTH IT).

OK. I need to get going. I’m fading and it’s my bedtime and I’m going to do my best to keep my phone away from me while I sleep so I don’t look at it and become wide awake in the middle of the night, It’s been happening and cutting into my precious sleep time. So for now it’s goodnight and goodbye until morning!!

Nodding off,
GS