June. 21. 2019 in Process of a Brokenhearted Woman

You’re acting weird again.. and I think it’s because she may have given you the green light on her feelings towards you.
I feel like you’re just using me as a distraction when she doesn’t give you attention..
And as much as I miss having you around, I am NO ONES second option.
I get that WE are JUST FRIENDS.
But you don’t treat FRIENDS like their distractions. You treat them with respect.
Well I guess that is the difference between you and I. When I’m with friends, I talk to them with dignity and respect, I am with them ONE ON ONE. I give them my attention, I put my phone away. I text them, call them and spend time with them as the way I’d like to be treated. But you.. you switch back and fourth with WHAT IS CONVENIENT for you.
I love you.. kind of. I think.
I definitely care for you.
But I just got you back. Today makes a whole week that you have been in my life again. Where we are talking on civil terms, where we are joking and laughing and talking like normal people.
However.. I feel like this is going to be short lived.
Especially with the way you’re treating me. ):
Again.