anorexia. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD
- June 15, 2019, 10:13 p.m.
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so this isn’t something i’ve talked about a lot, recently. [and now in other news. that doesn’t have to do w/ me being pissed off or dysfunctional or sad.]. um. i have anorexia. undiagnosed but yeah. my last big relapse was back in feb. and since. i’ve been making an effort to not let that happen. again. but i mean the time in between that each one has. has been um a longer duration then. i think it used to be. i won’t give details of. the relapse and the duration for obvious reasons. um. so back before we moved which 2 yrs. next month. we had a scale
in the bathroom. which. when i’d look at the number. i was looking to see if it went up not down. the scale is now elsewhere. my eating is. about the same it’s been since feb. i mean other then the relapse. i eat a lot at my mom’s i eat like 3 - 5 things per day. cheese, fruit,
sometimes hummus, pita. cheerios. uh.........pasta, mac & cheese, burritos. so yeah. a lot. so. idinno just an update i guess. do i miss it? being that sick? yeah. yeah i do. but like i said.
Exhumed By Scrying Eyes ⋅ June 15, 2019 (edited June 15, 2019)
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I was anorexic (diagnosed) when I was a kid. 12-18 years old, It wasn't by choice, I had other health issues (and now A TREMENDOUS amount of health issues) but I digress; back then I was 4'4 and 63lbs at 12 years old. Picked on, teased relentlessly because of how small I was.
I had to see an endocrinologist since my pituitary gland had stopped working which meant that I wouldn't get any taller. I was heartbroken.
My Dr. gave me 2 options.
I chose the latter.
I had to take a pill (I forget the name) that literally stretched the lining of my stomach so I'd be hungry more often. It frigging hurt!!! After a few years I had gained enough weight to go on growth hormone injections 6 days a week for another 3 years!!! Growing that much in so little time, bones, muscles, tendons, ligaments stretching... unimaginable pain!!!!!!
By the time I was 18, I was 5'11 and 115lbs.
Of course, my luck... when I was 18 I came down with a life threatening illness that has nearly killed me countless times, 3 last year alone. Depending on meds, I can gain a lot of weight in very little time. I was even 207lbs earlier this year, then I got so sick, I lost 40lbs in 10 weeks. I'm currently about 172lbs (an ideal weight for me).
I mention all of this because as someone that has and is struggling with their health on a daily basis, as someone that can't escape lengthy hospitalizations, blood tests, medications etc... you should never miss being sick and be oh so very glad each and every day that you aren't.
Best of luck to you and in good health!
nothispenelope Exhumed By Scrying Eyes ⋅ June 15, 2019
thank you so much. no you're. you're right. live as if you'll die tomorrow. dream as if you'll live forever - james dean. but yes thank you. also. i'm glad you explained why you mentioned. your story.
Exhumed By Scrying Eyes nothispenelope ⋅ June 15, 2019
You're welcome. And thank you; I've always appreciated that JD quote.
Sharing is easy when familiarity is the glue that binds two or more circumstances together.