Almost Four AM in Hello
- June 13, 2019, 4:01 a.m.
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I can’t sleep.
My mind is a flurry of thoughts.
I guess jitters about the new job.
Plus I’m missing someone in particular, she knows who she is. I’m an idiot sometimes.
I was lying in my bed but my mattress sucks so I’m back on the couch.
Been feeling lonely lately (gee I wonder why.)
I sometimes wonder if I’ll ever have another relationship, I can be very toxic even on my medication. BPD isn’t fun and some of the forums I’ve read have specifically said stay away from people who suffer from it. That hurts. Am I not a person, too? Do I not have feelings, wants and needs as well?
Ugh, I wish I could fall asleep…the alarm goes off in two hours.
Wish me luck on today, y’all.
Last updated June 13, 2019
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Deleted user ⋅ June 13, 2019
Good luck!
Tempestuous1 ⋅ June 13, 2019
People have such a misconception of BPD, and it's no wonder considering shit like that exists out there. We all can be toxic in our own ways. Some toxic people work better with other toxic people. I know I tend to mesh better with someone who has issues, or so perceives they do. What if we are normal and everyone else is just fucked up??