😐 in Depression

What the fuck is wrong with the world man ? I do nothing to nobody and i just feel like some kinda karma is biting me in the ass and just sucking me into this dark state of mind . I just hate everything rn . I can’t trust anyone. People keep showing their ugly true colors and it’s like who tf do I go to now ? Myself ? I feel like everyone doesn’t even notice me till they want something. And soon as I want something it’s like” let’s do this as quick as possible so you can get out of my face “ . I sit back and think hmm if I just disappeared no one would notice or even care . Everything always break your back for someone else but when it comes to me I feel nothing like who even am I to anyone it’s like “ can’t wait till you die “ so maybe this year I will .