The week before and the week of in Darkest Thoughts

I started timing it all. All the times my body and brain are out of sync, the times my emotions are too much, the times I am being too sensitive. Finally figured it out.
I do deal with symptoms of depression and have dealt with it since my teenage years, just under 20 years now. But since then, there are new symptoms and new schedules; these are my new hell.
You know PMS exists. You know depression exists. Combine them into a two week time period and you have me.
From suicidal thoughts that can’t be carried out. From severe anger and sadness that I can’t express. From feelings of hopelessness that never lessen. From being overwhelmed from the little things. From schedules being changed or not going as planned. From all of this, you get my two weeks of hell.